I need to write in My Ups and Downs Recorded.

I feel cloudy as always. I need to get a Kickstart. Motivation but I know that’s just another excuse. Mortality has really gotten a hold of my thoughts. Cold in this attic now but sweltering during the day. I wish to become bigger than all this. I am capable I just gotta get going. Maybe sleep more than 6 hours haven’t had a full night’s rest in weeks.