I texted that guy and he said he thought we got along well and wanted to be friends with benefits. I just said OK. I mean, if I'm not dating anyone and I have someone hot who wants me to come over and fuck him why should I say no? We'll see how it goes. I've never had a purely physical relationship before. At least he's honest and clear about what he wants. If I get hurt I'll only have myself to blame, and I'm amazing at blaming myself.
I still haven't heard anything about the job in Iowa. If I got it and the pay is decent I think I'll take it. I'm kinda ready to start over (again). I'm not sure how exciting Iowa is and it'll suck not knowing anyone. And I'll miss my friends and family. However, having a job I'm excited about is definitely a plus. I've been looking all over and this is the first position I've found that I really want. If I hate it I can always move back home, so why not try it? I'm already talking like I got it...
I'm feeling better about voiding that screenplay contract. I've been looking at different contests and competitions. The Austin Film Festival has a screenplay contest and accepts TV pilots. Submitting there actually gives me a chance of having my screenplay getting seen by actual network people. I think I'm going to submit it there. I can submit anywhere and do what I want with it. It's not owned by a shitty local production company anymore.
I told myself before that if I haven't made any progress in my career goals by thirty I should probably start to realize that they were just pipe dreams. That's why selling my first script was so exciting. Maybe I was actually good at this! It kind of sucked having to void the contract, but I knew it was the right decision. I didn't want these shithead liars producing my script.
In other news, I got a notification the other day saying that my federal student loan payment was now due. I've been paying private student loans for a little over a year now. I am making monthly interest-only payments of $387, which is roughly 30% of my monthly income. I'm going to have to call Sallie Mae and see what my options are. Student loans are ridiculously depressing to think about and I'm grateful I'm able to afford my current minimums, but I can't take on any more at this point and time.
I guess that's it for now.
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