Hitting that point of unsure if depression, boredom, anxious, etc. It’s quite shitty to deal with cause I don’t know what to do exactly. Here’s the deal:
I got hired into USPS as a RCA. Just did the 2 week training and here on, I go to the routes and such. The RCA position pays fairly well, but you are on call for routes that people call out on, so I may be in different communities all week. Who knows.
So, that is obviously a bit stressful plus I am tensed up about wanting to be good and not fukk up. It’s making me lose sleep and feel sick.
Not only that, but enthusiasm for things is nonexistent.
I don’t wanna do anything cause it all sounds like wastes of time and not so much of “this is something I -WANT- to do.”
Lack of enthusiasm towards hobbies and overall blank feeling, I usually link to depression. In that case, I can think of plenty of reasons to be depressed, but at that point, it feels more like I’m forcing it.
To me, I want every day to be exciting or that I did something fun. But I don’t even know what I want to do to make it that way.
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On a whole different note:
Fukk PC gaming.
Masterrace? Bullshit. Can’t even run Age of Mythology on today’s machines cause Win10 apparently doesn’t have some component to allow it, so only older machines can do it.
Not that PC gamers actually play games anyway.
They just play around with grass settings on Skyrim. #truth.
Haha.
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