Express yourself in 2016 is almost over

I wish i knew how to express my feelings better. Or atleast talk about them. My fiance and i have been together for a year and a half; known eachother for 10 years. We have a 10 month old son. I am a textbook Cancer. I am a romantic, i need to be constantly reminded that i am loved, needed and appreciated. I am a sexual being. I need to be satisfied. I think there is something wrong with me. I don’t think my fiance finds me attractive anymore or even likes me very much. I think this is a relationship based on convienence and a want from both of us to have a normal family since we both had pretty messed up childhoods. How do you tell someone that you are supposed to love that? And what if they actually confirm your feelings when deep down you just wanted to be reassured you are worth something? I overthink. Way too much. I think i have reason to feel this way. We don’t go out anymore unless i say this is what we are doing and this is when. We only have sex when i initiate it and its just straight to the point with little to no passion. (In my opinion, im all about the foreplay and i get none. Im a giver so he gets it.) Not like how it used to be. I know that i havent lost all the baby weight yet and am still a beached whale compared to what i used to look like but im trying. I have stopped eating fast food, cut out soda and drink water and have started stretching and doing light pilates to start rebuilding. Its just like he doesnt want anything to do with me. He works, i get he is tired, he has a tough job, but he has the same job as before so why could he do it then but not now? Im tired. Thats what he says. Isnt that what I’m supposed to say? I shouldn’t have to beg for attention and then feel like shit. When did the roles reverse? Why am i the needy obnoxious guy and he the tired girl? He tells me im beautiful everyday but its not enough when the last time we had sex was a week ago and before that 2 weeks. Our relationship is young, we might have a kid but we should still be wanting to spend quality time together. Finding a sitter is not a problem for us. But its the biggest problem ever and even when we are together, its like we would rather be somewhere else. I want this to go back to how it was. We were fun we would laugh and play and we happy. Now were an empty shell of what was. My heart is breaking.