Charlie's Funeral in 30's

After Charlie died & we got the announcement of where the funderal was, I stayed on the fence for a long time about what to do. I had only met him twice but he was family & I know my sister Amber would be struggling as she was his main caregiver for years. Also I wanted to be there for my sister Danae & everyone else. My biggest regret was & is not spending enough time with him. So I finally decided after having a phone chat with Jo that I should go. It was a 6 hour drive one way. Also we wouldn’t be taking Jas or Adam with us so what would we do for them? Jas had school too. It was a lot to try to figure out. Mom & dad stepped up to the plate fortunately. They told us they’d watch the kids & keep them overnight.
I packed an overnight bag with no idea where we’d stay that night, dropped the kids off with mom & dad, dad would have go get jas to school as we were on the road by 730 & school didnt start till 830. We drove with very little stops except once at walmart. Florin was trying to find a costume for my nephew Eli, Danae’s son. Danae had promised Eli a paw patrol costume then had trouble finding one. Got to bigger around 1, florin dropped me off at subway to get lunch (we were on opposite eating times because i had breakfast & he didn’t) & he went to wash the car quickly. when he came to pick me up, he ran into change & i got kas ready. we got to the church with enough time & went in.
The funeral was very nice & i loved the slideshow. we went out to the cemetery & i found out they were interning sherrys ashes (bio mom) with charlie’s. i kept feeling people staring at me the whole time, even florin made a comment to me about it.
we went back to the church for the lunch & i met more family. i found out the reason for the stares is i was a secret until just a few hours before the service & i look so much like my bio mom. i met my cousins chris, rjay & tasha, a few cousins from sherrys side & charlie’s brother frank & sister milly.
afterwards we went out to the farm where amber lived. amber had invited a few people out for shots on charlie’s behalf, one of his requests. we stayed there until 1am. amber was a mess. she got so wasted & threw up. she just couldn’t handle him being gone. he was like a dad to her. i guess she also hadn’t ate since he died :( she almost got a shot at going pro as a barrel racer & going to vegas but she would have had to race on charlie’s funeral & because she couldn’t go, she lost her chance. also randy our uncle & amber don’t get along & short story, randy’s threatening to try taking the farm & land away from amber & sell it. ambers the executor & this has been the family farm for almost 100 years. grandpa did not want it sold. all this was happening before charlie was even dead (coma still) the amount of stress he’s putting her under is not right. so amber had a very rough night. randy also blamed & yelled at amber for leaving charlie alone to get food when he died.
we finally left at one & drove to battleford where we crashed in a hotel room. woke up in the morning & met eli & danae for coffee then we were in the road again. this time for home. we stopped in MJ for milkshakes & a balsamic vinegar made at a specialty store. drove to W, met mom & dad there, got supper, picked up kids & came home. i was so happy to have the kids again. kassidy gave me & florin a rough night due to her cold. florins still sleeping.
side note: i told the kids i’d miss them so much as i packed their bag & adam said he’d miss us but we’re still friends & don’t cry ❤️❤️