Haven't felt like writing in Ok!!!

nope have not for some reason. I usually write my prayers (some) but have not lately. I get into these slumps of I think depression. think we all do to some degree. Anyway, things have really been good this year. I should be grateful I suppose. Count my blessings, huh? It seems like the more I do the more is required of me. I guess my age and body is saying enough. I am more than just tired. I am, just wanting to sit and not be disturbed. Peace and quiet alone with God and nature. Nothing to think about or focus on but the task at hand. Sounds like I need to go fishing by myself, huh? Nope that aint it either. My Spirit is restless. Ever get that way? My Spirit is not at peace. My Spirit knows where its roots are and that’s where Home is. I don’t sense I am at home. Home is where the heart is. Maybe God is preparing me for my next home. I am ready but not in a hurry. Know wut I mean? I like that half word wut..LOL So I am searching, soul searching. Not looking for happy. Oh I have a Joy in my heart and for the most part peace in my life that God provides. But, it seems like there is something missing, aloof, can’t put my thumb on it. It’s an itch if you will. In the worst place while in public. That’s why I like wearing over-all’s. I can get to it in a nice way. But, I need or think I need a fix. But, don’t know what it is needs fixing. Dilemma: When you want two things but can have only one. I know I am rambling here, Just my way of searching for answers. en praying a lot this morning also. Mostly for others and my family. I absolutely know that Gods providence is at work in my life. I know He is working in the back ground. I just can’t seem to get tuned in. Father God, change the desires of my heart. Mold me and make me into your kind of Christian. Help me Lord I need you, I am desperate for you. In Jesus name. Amen!