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Haven’t written in almost a month. Whoops!

To be honest, I really didn’t feel like it. I was so full of anxiety about my stupid CT scan and knew anything I started writing about would come back to that and the relentless anxiety surrounding it, the feelings of not being able to move forward in life, the fear of a potential bad scan. Bleh. So I just didn’t write.

But, good news! The weird area in my liver hasn’t done anything so it’s probably just an anatomical anomaly and there are no signs that my cancer has returned, so huzzah! We all finally feel like we can breathe again. I feel like I can make plans for the future again, so yay for that!

I, once again, failed to post any further State Fair food pictures. Maybe that will be a winter boredom project!

Work, overall, is pretty good. Despite frequently feeling like I’m playing doctor instead of an actual doctor, I do think I’m learning and getting better at this whole being a veterinarian thing. There are fewer instances of “AHHH WTF DO I DO WITH THIS?!” I still ask my coworkers lots of questions and they continue to be very patient and supportive. Despite the challenges and stress of being a new vet, this is the most comfortable I have ever been at a job and the most likeable group of coworkers I’ve ever had. I more or less feel like I can be myself, which is refreshing.

The biggest downside of this profession is allll the people I have to talk to. As an introvert with social anxiety disorder, this is a huge challenge and I often find myself exhausted simply from all the human interaction. I haven’t quite figured out the healthiest way to cope with this yet. Current solution is, after work, typically Aaron and I curl up in bed and watch too much TV. I would like to be less sedentary, but the idea of going back into the outside world after work most days is the last thing I want. I’m really looking forward to when we will be able to move downstairs because there will be more space. We’ll be able to set up our elliptical machine we got for free from a friend and have some floor space for yoga/pilates.

Speaking of downstairs, things are going slowly but stuff is happening. We purchased what I’m thinking of as our housewarming gift to ourselves - a fancy Sleep Number bed. It’s absurdly comfortable and we got it 1/2 off during their State Fair Sale. It will be delivered towards the end of October, so Aaron has been working on the mess-making parts of what will be our bedroom so the bed at least has somewhere to go when delivered. He ripped out the ceiling, which was quite the undertaking, and is starting to soundproof it because we can hear everything from upstairs and it’s not the best for the whole sleeping thing. After that, he’ll be sanding and refinishing the hardwood floor in that room. Unsure if there will be time to do painting, but that’s less messy and the bed can always be covered for that portion, at least. Sadly, once said bed has been delivered, we won’t be using it for quite some time as some of the rest of the projects will making living down there quite awful (ripping out the bathroom, refinishing the rest of the floors in the house). I really do think it will be quiet nice once we’re finished, though!

That’s all for now. Too lazy to write more. Hopefully I’ll manage to update in less than a month from now :P