Well here I am. 39 weeks pregnant with no end in sight. Actually, I’m just being dramatic. There is an end in site, but I don’t know if I’m ready for it. I went to the doctor today and was disappointed to see I had only progressed a little, to 4cm and 70% effaced. I guess a little progress is better than no progress at all. She asked me if I wanted to get induced and she said she could do it this coming Thursday. As in three days from now.
When she mentioned doing an induction last week I was all for it. In fact, I was super elated to hear that was even an option without being overdue. BUT, now that it’s been scheduled, I’m not so sure I want to go through with it. I mean on one hand, it will be just a few days before my due date and he is measuring at least 7.5-8 pounds right now. I like the idea of KNOWING and PLANNING ahead and being completely prepared for his arrival.
But part of me feels guilty and selfish for wanting to rush this and not let nature takes its course. I feel wrong for forcing him to come out before he is ready. Maybe he needs a few more days in there, I don’t know.
One major thing that has me on the fence is work. I. Am. Miserable. Here. Like I mentioned in my last entry, people are driving me bat shit crazy! When I walked in the door this morning I was automatically greeted by two different co-workers who BOTH said the same lame line, “Still, pregnant huh?”.
O_o
Ummm yeah, I’m here aren’t I? With a big ass stomach. Why even say that? It’s dumb and annoying. Then I thought I’d get some reprieve from the annoying questions/comments because this week is the annual WIC conference up in Atlanta and several of my coworkers are there. So I thought phew, I won’t have to come to work and be asked the same stupid questions over and over again.
Nope. Wrong. I’ve already gotten several texts “are you having the baby?”
O_O.
No. Damn’t. I told you I would tell you if I was. You asked me this morning and you asked me again at noon. No, and there’s no sign of it. Geez. Can people be anymore annoying???
So anyways IF I go through with the induction Thursday morning, I would work tomorrow and then take off Wednesday and start my leave for the next 10-12 weeks. That really excites me, to think I only have one and a half days of work left and I won’t have to hear anymore annoying commentary for a good 2-3 months.
I was induced with Cassidy because I was overdue. So I know the pain associated with it. I didn’t ever really want to be induced again, but it’s easy to say that when you’re not 39 weeks pregnant in the middle of a heat wave, carrying around an extra 40 pounds. Speaking of which, I lost two pounds since last week. Woohoo. Not that you’re supposed to lose weight during pregnancy, but I have gained WAY TOO much. Which is another reason I am keen on getting induced in a few days.
Sigh. I don’t know what to do. Any advice? Please help! I just don’t know what to do!
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