5-9-16 to now 5-14-16
Monday was a bit of a slow day like any day. Though being hit with fees from late payments just made it that much worse.
Still disgusted of the fact that I’m stuck in a position that is halting me from doing anything fun or enjoyable.
Try to apply for some loans to up and which several did but still not enough for the rest and it just sucks!
Tuesday,
Talked to some friends online throughout the early night because I was a bit sleepy working this night shift. Friend from Cali told me that she had a run in with her manager at a pub then was kinda lure in by his charm. Though it always amuse me to see people talk about having to sit on top of a high horse and act as if not touchable but give them a beer and person just loose control then do interesting stuff.
Made it home to watch some cinema then slept.
Sidenote: Donated my plasma for the greater good! Snapchat most of the fun throughout the donating. It wasn’t bad nor tiring. I actually got a kick out of the people looking shit face or evil. As for me I was all happy but a bit annoyed towards the last 30 mins lol
Made it home & talk to several friends then slept for a good period for work.
Wednesday,
Around 3 am my friend called then we talked about life & such then told her a bit of what is going on with my situation and she was crying over the phone. I asked why is she crying? She had told me that she haven’t ran across or know any person like myself to choice to be in this position and having to put up with every problem family is going through and not giving up. I told her Thank you for understanding and laugh at myself because I look back and see how awful life has treated me.
She then told me that I’ll be better situated as I get older and more people start to suffer and not know what to do but to look for someone like me to help guide them.
Some model folk call for my sister that she made it to do more modeling stuff & mum agree to it but in the condition to pay a fee! I’m already in the shit so mum never thinking said okies to it.
Of course the fee didn’t went through because of the zero funds in account haha Though will have to see what will happen and make sure my sis has options outside of this program run.
Thursday & Friday,
Both days were actually slow and had time.
Donated plasma again about 12 pm because they needed two samples to make sure everything was okay and be use for treatments. I actually was happy and goofy :) I am always but the happiness leak through and seen it on my face. With people just staring haha
Took a quick snapchat several times and then when it was over I went to gamestop to pick up a free pokemon gift card darkari :D
Talked to some friends then ate a high protein meal then slept haha
Spent Friday at home watching Vikings and bugged bestie & close friend throughout the morning because I was bored xD
As much hardship & stress I go through I try my best to keep myself tame and balance. I don’t want to be like other people to just break down and cry. Crying is okay but it’s not something to cry about just yet I have the will power to over come such problems.
Saturday,
Woke up extra extra late because I felt so warm & relaxed in bed… Felt at ease with myself knowing that the worse is to come ( don’t know when or where but it will happen ) and all I can do is just steadfast but before that I need to brush my teeth :D
Ate a donut before brushing haha Poor teeth of my haha
Been up since then watching season 3 of the Vikings and sent close friend some random pictures and clips.
Now it is 5:39 pm & currently typing now now ( now )
My mind wonders all over the place in this prison of a body.
Urges being controlled and at bay though as much as I wonder.
What will be of me.
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