every time i have a long weekend, i realize how much i just want to stay home. currently, i would be completely content with my life if i was a stay at home mom. i never thought id ever say that. ive always said i thought i would go nuts staying home all day. i didnt think i could take all the baby stuff and not talking to adults all the time. but you know what? i could. i totally could.
i love being home and taking care of freddie. i love playing with him. i love taking him to gymboree and target and wherever. i never feel like ive wasted my day. i feel like my home would be cleaner, neater and we would be doing better as a family if i could stay home. i would be happier. i wouldnt be as tired. i love watching him all day. i just love it.
unfortunately, my husband and i dont have that luxury. we need my job for the health benefits. we need my job for the money. if i ever want to get further as a teacher, i need my job for further my career. maybe im just feeling what every working mom feels. its not even guilt, though. i feel like my family would be better if i got to stay home. i dunno…sigh
i always feel like im being pulled in 2 directions at once. honestly…if dann got a job that paid enough, i would stay home.
~mana~
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