Alone in Safety Net

Most of the time, being single really doesn’t bother me anymore. I’ve never been in any sort of relationship. I’ve never even been asked out let alone been on a date. And most days, I couldn’t care less.

My closest friend live 2 hours away. The next is in another country. I have a sister that lives only 30 miles away, but we have never been real close (although this may be finally changing). Our other sister lives across the country. I live with my mother because I can’t afford not to. We do most things together because neither of us have any friends around here. She also lives with her mother and step dad (and therefore so do I by default) because she can’t afford not to.

I’m used to not having many friends and over the years I’ve gotten used to not having many nearby. I always had my brother. That is one adjustment I just can’t seem to make.

Most days I’m okay. Some days, I feel like I can’t breathe. Like there is a huge, gaping hole in my chest.

It’s a good thing I have my dogs. :-) I’d really be lost then.

Last updated December 31, 2015