Blogging From Bed in The Crimson Permanent Assurance

  • Dec. 14, 2013, 3:43 p.m.
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Tim just left for a drs appt. His neurologist. I don't know why this dude is suddenly scheduling Saturday morning appointments, but he was supposed to see him last week and cancelled due to the weather and rescheduled for this Sat. Tim asked me if I wanted to go and I just had to bow out of this one. It's just a follow up to make sure everything is OK after the last ER visit and I have already had my one allotted Saturday morning post work drink, and I really should be sleeping instead of writing here but whatever. I am so stoked because I found someone on a local Facebook yard sale site who is selling a new (supposedly) 2DS for $30 cheaper than they are in stores and I am supposed to meet her at 3pm to complete the transaction. This is great. I have, luckily, had pretty good luck with this online yard sale Facebook group, so hopefully that holds. That is what Savino wanted for Christmas, along with games for it (which are what is truly fucking expensive). With Tim being out of work without pay for at least three days in this pay, I really need all the savings I can get. So I hope this works out. I couldn't believe someone hadn't already jumped on the deal, especially since I spent about an hour researching the cheapest 2/3DS deals online this morning. I am choosing to see this as a break in this shitstorm of ridiculousness that we have been enduring lately.

Savino is geeking out on the Xbox with Jaden right now, who spent the night last night while I was at work. This has become the new norm, he stays over on Friday nights. I am not super excited about it but since I am at work until 7am and then asleep until around 2, I don't complain. Jaden and Savino really love each other and the time they spend together so I don't stand in the way of that. Haley is downstairs with them right now, I put her in charge of keeping the children alive while I sleep.

Oh Haley. That girl. I just discovered that since November she has run up at least $100 in iTunes charges because she started using Tim's old iPhone 4 which had his iTunes info and account on it. I changed his login for it yesterday so that she is unable to make any more purchases and informed her that she owes me so very many chores. I really wanted to be like, well, Merry Christmas! That was your Christmas present! But Tim doesn't approve of that, of course, it is too harsh in his eyes. I did make it very clear to her that in my eyes, that is the same thing as stealing. She knew that purchasing apps and music was costing us money and that she should have asked for permission first. I am disappointed in her to say the least. I am, however, proud of myself for not screaming all of that at her in full on meltdown mode, I have been making a concerted effort not to be a shrieking harridan to the kids and have been about 90% successful. If you ask me, though, I feel like sometimes these kids just need to be yelled at and a little terrified of the consequences of their actions, even if that isn't a very popular or "cool" parenting view. But Tim really feels like things would be better, even if just for him, if I wasn't so vocal about my disappointment or displeasure, so I make a real effort. I give them both about two or three times of me being calm before I start to raise my voice and when they complain about me yelling, I point out that asking them calmly had no results so if they want me to be calm, they should listen the first time I make calm requests. I don't know, you give and take, that's all you can do. Haley is 14, she's just about reached the age where nothing has an impact so it's a crapshoot either way. Anyway, she will probably be the death of me. She has a D in English from not turning assignments in and I got a nasty gram email from her teacher to which I replied that I have stressed the importance of her doing her homework and turning it in. I don't know what this teacher expects me to do, when she gets home if she doesn't have her homework, there's nothing I can do about it. The school is closed and locked up, so I can't take her down there to get into her locker to get whatever she's left behind, I can only ground her so much and then there's nothing left to take away. She's a 9th grader, it's on her now. Oh well. It's just hilarious that at the beginning of this year, the guidance counselor was all, let go and let them grow, now I have her teachers pretty much riding ME to make sure she's being responsible. I wanted to be like, look lady, I work 50 hrs a week on 3rd shift, her dad works at least 45 hrs a week, we are barely scraping by and these kids are already getting the short end of the stick out of us, how about you figure out a way to run your class so that it doesn't rely on homework every day to make sure they're learning. I know, I know, it's not their fault that they have 25 kids in a class and not much choice, but its not mine either. I have started to wonder if maybe Haley would have better grades if I pulled her out of school and enrolled her in online school instead, but Tim would probably flip a bitch and I think it would probably end up being 6 of one, half a dozen of the other anyway. And it's not like I have all this time to supervise her doing online school either so I just don't know. All I do know is that she will be lucky to scrape by with C's this 9 weeks. Tim always says "I was a c student too" but I was NOT. Good grades were important to me, so it's hard to wrap my head around this situation. It's not that she is not capable of the work, she's just lazy and procrastinates. I hate it that that is the truth, but it is. She's rather be sleeping, or reading, (books of her choice of course, not anything that would help with school) or drawing. It's complicated. I know she would really thrive in a school with a class size of maybe 5-8, there is just nothing like that around here. So, rock and hard place. I don't know. I just feel like she is going to have to decide soon what sort of college she is aiming for because I don't think she can handle academia with the way things are going right now. She's not inspired or excited about learning and I just don't have the tools, time, money or options to change that here and now.

Well. That was deep. Maybe I better cut this off here, my arms are hurting from typing this much on my phone.

I hear OD is down, maybe for good, maybe EWS is taking over OD, maybe there is an actual server move happening, who knows? I only go there every once in awhile to read the few ppl on my faves that haven't converted over here, and I think of those maybe only one is not just a train wreck diary that I read for fun, not because I care about them. I am so happy that 99% of the OD community that I care about is here on Prosebox. It's not OD but that is totally Ok because home is where the heart is, not where the code is. Tim should be back soon, hopefully I can get a few hours of sleep here eventually.


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