A little bit of an update :) in Journal

I decided to work out how long it’s been since I ‘shopped’ and it’s been 3 months and 21 days! That’s 111 days, that is seriously crazy for me but awesome! I do really miss it, sometimes I dream about clothes shopping and then wake up feeling really guilty. I did accidently stumble on a dress I really want on eBay and I’ve been trying to talk myself out of buying it, I’m pretty sure I won’t because it would be something that I’d have to lie about and it’s not worth that but the want is still there! I’ve been pretty good about staying off shopping websites and out of shops but I can’t stay off of eBay because I’m still selling things on there and whenever I open up the app they are there with their suggestions for me! I just need to remember that resisting giving in to temptation and proving to myself that I can will feel better than actually getting the thing that I want!
I don’t really have much to update, I’m still just working all the time, but this weekend I have the WHOLE weekend off because it’s Paul’s birthday on Sunday! So I am pretty flipping excited about that! Paul doesn’t really like to celebrate his birthday but I am excited to be able to spend the weekend with him regardless! I think I mentioned before that he had said not to get him any presents because of my financial situation but I have just got him a few of his favourite chocolaty things to wrap up, and a card which I still need to write in… I am taking him for dinner on the Saturday night and I was really hoping that I would make good tips at the weekend to go towards the meal but it was actually the worst weekend I’ve had for tips since I went back! On Saturday there was a really weak team in the kitchen and we were a person short out front, the wait for food was over an hour and everyone in the restaurant just hated us! I made £4 all night! I had one table who was sweet about the wait but they didn’t tip and everyone else was complaining! Sunday was a bit better but when I first went back to the hut I did tell them that the latest I could work on a Sunday was 7pm, because of working at my main job the next day, but the manager who does the rota had put me on 12.30 – 7(8) meaning if it was quiet I could leave at 7 but if not I’s have to stay on to 8. There were only 2 of us on plus a manager all evening so it was pretty unlikely I was going to be able to leave at 7 and leave 1 waitress with the whole restaurant so I didn’t end up finishing until 8.15. I shouldn’t complain because I get paid for the time that I’m there but I felt bad because I was going straight from work to Mum and Dad’s for dinner and it had been so busy that I hadn’t had a chance to let them know I was going to be late. And typically although Drew and Robyn hardly ever go to Sunday dinner anymore, this week they did and Robyn always gets funny about eating late and leaving late because she has to get up early for work the next day (she’s a teacher). I was having a bit of a vent at dinner about how short staffed we always are and how I was frustrated about making such rubbish tips this weekend and Robyn started saying that she thinks it’s so unfair that the kitchen don’t get a share of our tips. Ugh, I know the reason is because Drew used to work in the kitchen and didn’t make tips but I don’t think it’s unfair! The kitchen get paid a higher basic wage and they don’t have to deal with customers! They also get to listen to their own music in the kitchen. I also feel like if a table gives me a tip they’re expecting for me to keep it. If anyone ever asked me to give a tip to the kitchen for them I would definitely do it but that’s never happened at Pizza Hut! The thing that really annoys me about Robyn saying it though is that she never had a job until she graduated and became a teacher. Her parents thought education was so important that they didn’t want for her to ever have a part time job so they always just paid for everything for her. So she doesn’t have any idea what it’s like to be a waitress or any other customer service position and have to deal with the general public. I am lucky to make a decent enough basic wage that I don’t have to depend on tips but because it’s a second job I get taxed a lot so do kind of rely on tips to make up for that. Mostly it just annoyed me that Robyn was complaining about me getting to keep the tips I’m given when she has no idea what she is talking about!
I also mentioned that I was frustrated I hadn’t made better tips because I wanted to take Paul out for his birthday, especially to say thank you for how awesome and supportive he’s been lately and gave the example of all the help he had given me with my car. I said that I was going to change some of my Tesco clubcard vouchers in to restaurant vouchers instead so that I could still do it, Dad was asking me about how to do it but I didn’t think much of it, I just assumed he wanted to do it himself but at the end of the night before I went home he gave me £40 worth of restaurant vouchers from his own clubcard vouchers. I was seriously touched. It might not seem like such a big deal, especially because Paul’s parents are super-crazy generous to me and they always pay for me and Paul to go out for dinner for my birthday as well as getting me presents, but because it dad I feel like it means that he sees how hard I’m trying and also that he appreciates Paul to which is really nice!
Sorry that this has been kind of all over the place! I don’t really have anything else to say, so I’ll say goodbye!
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