i found out yesterday that my grandmother, mim, has lung cancer. shes been battling a cough since february and the doctors found a spot on her lung a few months ago. she was finally able to do a biopsy and the results came back positive for lung cancer. mim is 78 years old. she hasnt been in great health for some years now. she hasnt been in poor health, but not great health either. basic ailments for getting old, pretty much. but still…
it was a shock. i guess she used to smoke years ago, but ive never seen her smoke my entire life. but you never know with things like that. you can stop smoking for 30+ years and still get lung cancer. sigh it was such a shock yesterday. the prognosis is not good. i dont know what my grandparents insurance can cover…they already dont have a lot of money and were struggling with that. now cancer? just something i never suspected.
mim is one of the greatest women youll ever meet. shes soft spoken and a good christian. she loves jesus (we used to have a birthday cake for him on christmas day every year) and the dallas cowboys. you dont get between mim and her cowboys! she will hoot and holler at the game louder than the men! she can tell a good joke and always has a kind word to say. we’ve always had a good relationship. she always says things work out the way theyre supposed to because its Gods plan. she was a big support for me when i didnt get into graduate school right away. shes just…always there in her own quiet way.
i have been very fortunate to grow up with all of my grandparents. i also knew 4 of my great grandparents. all of my grandparents were at my wedding last year. theyve all become great grandparents with my niece and some of my cousins on my dads side have kids too. ive never had someone this close to me go through something like this. there have been surgeries and other minor health problems, but nothing like this. i cant believe that i could actually loose her soon :(
all i keep thinking is that i hope the prognosis is good enough that she gets to meet my son. she’ll live long enough for him to be born and for them to meet. i dont know what their plans are going to be this year…usually my grandparents head back down to florida in september or october, once their seasonal camp in woodstock closes for the year. they might not be leaving this year or maybe they will. in any case…i live 3-4 hours away from my family. im probably not going upstate after the baby is born until christmas. so…im hoping they stay upstate with my parents and i get to see them on skype and at christmas with the baby. ideally, the prognosis is great and mim will be around and well until shes 100…we’re going to have to wait and see.
the other thing i cant get off my mind is that once mim goes, pip (my grandfather), is probably going to go soon after. hes not doing as well as he says he is. his hearing is really impaired and im sure he has other issues he doesnt tell us about. but…theyve been married almost 60 years. he still calls her his bride…he will introduce her as his bride to new people or when hes at a restaurant. hes so proud to have her and to have loved her all these years. they have a great love story. and im afraid that when mim goes, pip is going to follow and pass from a broken heart. it happen a lot with old couples like my grandparents. one cant live without the other. i dont want to loose my grandparents. theyve always been a big part of my life. its difficult to think about them not being around anymore…sigh
please send some prayers or good vibes or whatever you do my grandmothers way. she needs all the positive energy she can get right now. we’re hoping for a good prognosis and hopefully a speedy recovery. i dont want her to suffer. no one deserves to suffer, especially not good people.
thank you.
~mana~
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