There really is nothing going on. It’s quiet here which is eerily strange. I keep waiting to see if its the calm before the storm. I hate that feeling. Like something bad is just out on the horizon.
He has not spoken to her at all since our talk last week. Not through text message. He’s not taking her calls nor is he calling her. This is to the best of my knowledge of course. He could be deleting the calls and texts out after he talks with her. I still want to install something on both our phones to ease my worry but all the applications I have looked at have the capability of being shut off by the user and being turned back on. What good is that?? The applications are not inexpensive either. Some even come with a 10 dollar bill every month. The phone bill is coming up shortly. He said he has not spoken to her since July 1. The phone bill will prove the verbal communication (if it’s there or not). The text messages - I have no way of knowing if he’s being truthful or not. I pray he is. I really really do.
It’s quiet in the house this morning too. I’ve been up since 5am. Sitting here reading CNN, CBC and the like. Reading how the world survived another night/day. I’ve been hanging out on Pintrest and Raverly. Found some really great things I want to make. I love that I have a job where I can knit all day long if I want to (and I DO knit all day). Everyone is still sleeping in the house but me. I like this time of day. I know he didn’t sleep well last night. Since his surgery nearly a year ago he has a very hard time regulating his body temperature. We have had to set the house temp at 79F because the electric bill was so high last month. With the increase house temperature plus him not being able to regulate himself - he gets overheated very easily. I wish I could take that for him too. His mom is still sleeping. She frequently is up all night long unable to sleep. Even the dog is still snoring away in his kennel.
Life is beautiful when it’s this quiet. Good coffee and news to read. Yes life is nice.
Today is my first doctor appointment in just about two years. I was really wanting to get a pap and female checkup done but apparently those types of things are only done at the gynecologist here. I guess that is ok considering I’m still spotting. It’s been 3 weeks already. A week before my period came. Then my period arrived all nasty. Then I just continued to spot. I’m not really ‘clean’ enough for a checkup down there by a male doctor if you know what I mean. By no means do I intend to break out the glitter and perfume for my lady bits but there is just a dirty feeling when your spotting and you cannot clean up enough to be checked out. So today, apparently, will just be a normal wellness checkup. Get me on the books so to speak. He’ll order a slew of bloodwork to be done. I’ll bring in my cholesterol readings from my blood donations. He’ll take a family history. I’ll tell him of my horrible periods for the last year (it’s only recently got worse thank God) and then I’ll ask for a referral to a friends recommended gyno. I want to get this bleeding thing checked out as soon as possible. If it’s menopause fine I’ll take that with some suggestions how I can stop bleeding all damn month. If it’s not that - what is it and can we fix it. I worry that it is something else entirely. I worry about that quite a bit. Doctor Google seems to think its cervical cancer - I pray that it’s just Doctor Google being all gloom and doom like it normally is.
Today is my Sunday. I work 3 of my 5 days and I’m begging for a weekend, however once I get the one day off I’m ready to go back to work. I get bored. At least at work I’m not bored.
My daughter blew up my little blueberry car a couple of weekends ago. I was sad really. My mom helped me buy that car. I also had some very faint hope that I would be bringing this car to the US with me (even though it was going to be terribly expensive and a long LONG process). Now it is gone. The engine itself died amongst other things. Come to find out she had not brought the car for an oil change since I left. 2 years without basic maintenance. >.< My daughter… oh my. Well, the lesson has been a costly one for her. She now has to go out and purchase her own car (which she has). So now she has a car payment on top of car insurance. She goes to pick up her new to her car today. She is excited - I am nervous for her. She still is very much my baby and I wonder if she’s ready to have so much financial obligations. Then again, were ANY of us ready when we left the nest and jumped into being an adult? I know I was not, and I survived none the less.
I should go off and look to fill up my coffee cup. It appears to have a hole in it. Why? Well because every time I look into the cup it’s nearly empty! ;)
You all have a nice day. Make the best out of it. Be happy! You woke up this morning and waking up is one of the hardest things your body has to do every day. (as told to us by the cardiac surgeon and cardiologist) <3
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