Good Morning... in Ok!!!

Not much going on… nudder day at work..... Ate some real good watermelon last night. Sweeeet! All is well on the farm. Wondering if anybody out there knows of a natural appetite suppressant. My appetite is out the roof. I could eat 24-7. never get full. I am overweight Obese is a better term. Slowly killing myself with my fork. I am getting desperate for something to get all this fat off of me. Killing my energy level. Entertain any reasonable suggestions on how to get rid of it. Hardest thing I have ever tried to do. I keep praying for relief. I can’t seem to find the power to refuse food. I am out of control. Me and God are on the outs on this issue. He aint helping. I know I have to initiate. I know I have to turn the steering wheel for the power steering pump to provide the power. I know all the right answers. I just can’t seem to do it. What’s wrong with me? I live in a culture where food is cooked and is so good and plentiful. I have been obese since childhood. All Excuses I use. I got a lot of them. I am a sweet a-hollic. I eat to much. Although I try to eat healthy I still eat to much. Portion control? What’s that? come on folks what do you do that works? I am serious I need some help. No I am not doing surgery. To many horror stories about surgery. Diets or a joke. Boring! Somebody out there knows something that will help suppress my appetite. I am dyeing here folks. Literally…They say the first thing an alcoholic has to do is admit he is one. I admit I am a obese person. Have been all my life. I don’t want to be anymore. I want to wear normal clothes. Do normal activities without having to stand up to breathe. Exercise and swim and walk and run. Normal stuff. I am willing to try most anything right now. Bigger than ever before in my life. UuuuGH!