I'm worried sick over D. She's not answering her phone and the last message from her she sounded like she was at the end of her rope. My instinct tells me she's either attempted suicide or has successfully killed herself. While she was gone over the weekend her husband packed up everything and moved out of their house. I don't have her home phone or I'd be blowing that up along with her cell. I don't have her address or I'd have gone over there yesterday. My hands are tied and there's not a thing I can do about it.
I dreamed last night that D appeared and said she was fine and for me not to worry. She was wearing a long flowy white dress. Her hair was also flowy. I really hope it's true. For me when I dream it usually means the opposite.
My recovery is going well. I've been reduced to half days for group therapy. I only have five days left. I should graduate from the program on Dec 12th. Why so late? My parents are in town, so I decided to go only on Mondays until they leave.
I'm starting to get repeat lectures. Yesterday was a repeat on grief.
Everything else is going well. Hubby and I had an argument Saturday night. His anger spilled over to Sunday. He finally started speaking to me again Sunday evening. Yesterday he was back to his usual self. I didn't mean to make him mad. I'm so insecure with our relationship because of our problems last Spring. It's been 7 months ago that my trust was broken and I kicked him out twice in a weeks period. I swear I'm trying to move past it, but once in a while something will trigger my insecurity and set me off. The difference now is that I'm aware of the triggers.
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