There’s quite a bit I would actually love to write about, but I’m just feeling hesitant to say anything…
Missing my parents. They left Friday morning (did I write after they left ? I must have). I am also switching counselors after next week. The girl I’ve been seeing is technically in a situation like Cori where she is in training, so I’ve seen her since February and next week is our last week together (so this isn’t my choice to switch). The new lady… well… she’s older. Maybe 50. Nice, but… I had a better feeling about Jen than Marie (Jen is the current counselor). Plus Jen is probably my age. Hell, I suppose she could be a year or two younger. It was just easier to talk to her. Not so sure about the new lady. But Marie is licensed and all that, so… I just feel like she may be more clinical about everything, while Jen was… not ? I don’t know. I guess time will tell, since she will be working more with me regarding the rape when I was 14…
I still couldn’t be happier with Cori. I still get butterflies when he winks at me or touches me. I still love him with all my heart and imagine us years down the road. Yeah, we’re at the point where we don’t see each other much and we have our lives and it should all be old hat, but I still enjoy all my time with him and love him even more. But there is still something that is frustrating both of us regarding being intimate, and although he FINALLY got a call about making an appointment with a psychiatrist (his issue is most likely due to one of his medications) it won’t be until June 24th, and even then it may be months before he gets back to normal, if ever. If you’re wondering what it is, I think I have a book titled NSFW and the newest entry in that book explains it (and I tried not to be graphic). But for the last month, it’s just been… frustrating. I may write another entry in that book about that.
But yeah, otherwise things are great between us. Other things involving life, well… better, but not great. I still keep hearing different things at work about the availability of more hours (like PT w/ Benefits positions or full time) so that’s… really annoying. But I’m doing the best I can with what I have.
~Rach
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