so I started to write this entry yesterday and totally forgot about it…another testament to how ive been feeling lately.
basically, ive felt like crap since ive been on break. its like my body was able to stop and it completely shut down. ive been taking a nap pretty much every day (except when i was upstate with my niece), ive been nauseated every day, all day for no reason and im feeling really achy lately.
monday, i went to the ENT to check out my noduals and get me signed up for vocal therapy. turns out, not noduals, but a small pollup. whats the difference? both are caused by over use of the vocal chords, but a nodual is more like a callous and is even on both sides of the vocal chords. pollups are more like a blister and are not even on the vocal chords. my left vocal chord is slightly more irritated than my right vocal chord. i need to start vocal therapy for a couple of months and if that doesnt work, i will have to have surgery to remove the pollups. the doctor was very nice. when he looked at what medications i was taking, he was very concerned that i was taking aleve every day and that i had been taking aleve for a long time. he said that wasnt normal for a woman my age and he was concerned that i have joint pain and achy muscles. i gave him my back story about having mono for a long time and really not feeling right ever since then, that i get tired easily and the aches and pains and all that. the psoriasis was also a big factor in his concern. he kinda got serious with me and said i needed to see a rheumatologist right away. he said i could and probably do have an auto immune disease. he gave me the name of a rheumatologist he recommended. so i am going to see that rheumatologist in about a month. they didnt have an appointment earlier than that. hopefully i will get some answers for all this tiredness!
so basically, ive felt crappy all week. i want to go back to work just to get back into the groove of a routine. sometimes when i sleep too much, i get like this. i cant function. however, all my body wants to do is sleep. i dont feel like i can do much else. yesterday, dann and i sat on the couch watching tv all day. i feel guilty about it because i have work to do to get ready to go back to work (oh unit plans!) but i was sleeping on and off all day. my husband is concerned. he doesnt see me sit and sleep so much and hes worried about what the doctor said. we’re already tight on money right now and if i get sick and cant work or end up missing a lot of work, then we are going to be in trouble. i dont think thats going to happen. i tend to do better when im at work and can push through a lot of stuff when i need to, but its still concerning.
now, the nausea i think is unrelated. i sometimes will have a bought of gastritis for a few days and i think thats what im going through. this might be TMI, but im having a lot of gas and im burping a lot. i can eat and what i eat does not seem to be affecting the gas. when i eat, i feel better for awhile and then it comes back again. i dunno. i try to eat healthy, but maybe ive been having too much sauce lately. sometimes that will set it off. sigh i just want to feel normal right now.
alright, gotta get back to these unit plans. later!
~mana~
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