Weigh in day in Journal

So I went and got weighed in and I’m still exactly the same weight for the 4th week in a row! So frustrating! I really thought that this would be the week that I’d lose at least something but I did miss my cardio on Tuesday and it’s the second day of the blob so I don’t know if that would make a difference?! I don’t want to make excuses though because my food still hasn’t been perfect but I really wanted to have some sort of loss today to show Ross that I am really trying.
The past few times I’ve exercised I’ve gotten this weird ache in my neck where it meets my head and I got it today almost as soon as I started, I just did some cable flys and lat pull downs and then I had to stop! So Ross got me to spin for half an hour whilst watching some nutrition videos. My heart rate monitor still said I burnt over 400 calories but it was annoying that I couldn’t do a proper session especially because I wanted to start off my last 6 weeks well. I’m not sure what’s going on with my neck, I’m not sure if it’s maybe from tensing up when I’m doing stuff because it only happens when I exercise, I might ask Beth to give it a bit of a massage at the weekend with her magic hands!
It’s weird that I’ve not lost any weight because I am starting to feel a bit better in myself and noticing that my clothes are fitting me a bit better, I guess I’ll just keep on keeping on. Ross offered for me to bring Paul along with me for a session when he’s available but I mentioned it to him today and he’s not keen. I am a bit worried about what I’ll do when the 12 weeks is over because I do want this to be a permanent change but I can’t imagine ever walking into a gym and lifting weights by myself, I think I’d be more likely to do it at Ross’ gym but even then I think I’d feel a bit silly but I suppose I’ll just work that out when I get there, maybe I’ll get super confident in the next 6 weeks!

Tomorrow Natalie from Pizza Hut is getting married! I don’t know if you guys remember me writing about Beth and some other girls being invited to the whole day and last week Beth gave me an evening do invitation. I am really excited to go but Paul isn’t invited so I’m a bit sad about that because weekends are the only time I get to see him at the moment. Also I don’t know what I’m going to wear because I’ve not lost enough weight to fit in to the dress I was hoping to wear, the only fancy clothes I fit into are black and I feel weird wearing black to a wedding!
I hope you all have a fabulous weekend!
xxx