The last few days have just been met with back pain and me trying to find myself. I’m not in any dire or horrible place right now - nor am I really depressed. Truly, I’m just bored and I’m dying for something new or something to work towards again. I had a lot of bad luck with people bringing me down and I was wrong to even believe that people saying things like that were people that actually mattered. Truth is, I think I just wanted them to matter because I don’t have much of anyone and I find it very hard to connect with people since my Brother died.
On the more positive front, I’ve taken the time to consider my options with music and art. I feel like I should actually pursue these goals without my drive being to prove someone or something wrong. This is something I set out to do since I was young: complete a great piece of work. I’ll do it too, I’m sure.
Food, sadly, has been uber scarce but I’ve been able to curve that by doing other things. Maybe I can dim my appetite and I won’t be hungry enough to eat a lot anymore - maybe.
Hope all is well with you people!
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