Lost in my Thoughts.. in Dayz

I’m going to see Stacks on Thursday. I haven’t visited him since he was in county, he’s been upstate for over a year now. I can’t believe I haven’t seen him since his hearing in December of 2013.
After me and Demerick split for good, (we had a 3 year run..)
I went back to a childhood puppy love & I guess I did it out of pure instinct, that’s all I knew intuitively…
I’m so over the gang involvement & life after all of my trials & tribulations & witnessing.
I often time drift away, deep into my mind, thinking about my ex Demerick & wonder if he thinks of me.
We were just two young and troubled teens, looking for love, loyalty & acceptance…
As well as someone to get it wrong with, or in other words to learn & grow with.
We occasionally still speak, but he’s still living in that world that I want nothing to do with. Matter of fact, he just got busted by the feds a week or 2 ago.
Funny thing is as soon as he was released, he called me.
What a shame…I warned him, but some people won’t listen until they experience it for themselves.
I tried so hard to pull him up from out of the waters he was drowning in, but he just tried to pull me down with him.
Some people don’t want to be saved.
I will forever cherish our friendship, we were just two young people who only had each other, best friends with what seemed to be such an unbreakable bond.
Probably sharing way too much with each other, I’ll always believe that the friendship is what ultimately failed us romantically speaking.
There is such a thing as knowing too much about someone, what their every next move will be..It can get old quick.
I guess, All things go.
Good night