February 13 & 14 in Never Say Never

Friday was a beautiful, warm, sunny day here. Last Friday of Funemployment. I went to Pilates and walked three miles in the afternoon while listening to a couple of short podcasts. I worked some. Sending out final invoices to a couple of clients felt scary. I’ve handed off the big, steady projects now. I just have one thing to finish up before Tuesday. I watched Force Majeure in the evening and started reading Gail Caldwell’s “New Life, No Instructions.” She writes a lot about her dogs. I like that.

Saturday was all 75 degrees and clear blue skies. I went to a 90-minute hot yoga class and then D. came over with flowers and vegan cupcakes. It was very sweet. We each ate a cupcake, and I gave him a cap I knitted. In the late afternoon my friend SH and I went for a four-mile walk-and-talk. She always helps me calm down and find compassion for myself. I like that I have Laura to be very no-nonsense, stop-kidding-yourself, who-do-you-think-you-are tough and SH to be very have-you-considered-this, be-kind-to-you, cut-yourself-some-slack compassionate. They balance each other out.

I am doing a little spring cleaning, a little decluttering, a little nesting now that I don’t have to worry about where the money is coming from. I started my tax prep and 2014 was a very good year–the best ever, between the severance and the freelance. It was also a very good year for travel: I went to Montana, Peru, Ecuador, the Galapagos, Mexico, California, and North Carolina. Additionally I spent two months in Gulf Shores and spent both Thanksgiving and Christmas in central Alabama with my family.

This year I am thinking that I want to do a big late summer trip to Vancouver and Banff and Seattle and Portland, and then spend Christmas down at the beach in Alabama. You should think about coming with me.

I am living very close to my truth right now. I feel more clear than I ever have in my entire life, despite the occasional bout of fragility and heartache and ambivalence that is really this human’s condition. And I am quite ready for this new professional adventure ahead.