The math doesn’t add up. I have until May to get things going in the right direction. With about 4.5k in the bank I have a certain amount of fear regarding this shit coming down the pike. I have about 1.3k going to rent, with about 500 that comes in the day after, so 1.1k but about 600 in miscellaneous bills, so 1.7k a month. I make about 400 at the office, which leaves me about 1.3k, and that comes out from the 4.5k. After about 3 months, I’ll be left with about 600 left.
That’s April.
I need to last until after May.
With that said, I need to start looking at what I can do to somehow mitigate the costs of living. Cuz I’ll obviously have some months where more will be spent and more will need to be done. I’ll have to do it better for my senior year, because I’ll be wondering what the hell will be going on for summer as it is. My workplace wants to give us 40 hours during that intersession, so I can look forward to that. However, that’s in the summer. That’s May- where most of the costs have already passed. So I need something for another 10 hours that will sustain me for that extra month. Another department? I’ll look into it.
My Sunday was less than productive. I drank like a fish last night, and most of the morning was concerned with getting my body back in working order. My neck was out of shape, my head was throbbing, my back was screaming at me, my legs were like stone pillars. By noon, I was up and at it, doing the shopping and the check deposits and trying to figure out what’s going on with my financials.
It was interesting to note that about $400 was spent on dance this month. There’s something in my thoughts, somewhere in the back next to all the other WTF thoughts (a section of my mind that looks at certain things in my life, as they happened or as they are happening and goes, “What the Fuck?”)- analyzing the benefits vs. the drawbacks of dance. Yeah, I’m somewhat mentally fulfilled and my body is a bit more capable than it would have been. I’m healthier than I would have been. I’m stronger than I would have been.
But is all that worth almost half a K a month? For an entire year it’ll be 6K a year for dance. The thing is, will I be able to look at 6K and note the benefits of what I have learned and what I’ve been putting my body through that it might keep me alive for a few more years at the end of my life? Do I look forward to a few more years? If it’s a few more years of stupid struggling through all this, then I’ll be done with it. I’m sure it won’t be, but things need to get going in the right direction if I’m to have a better attitude about it.
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