Wow, This summer has been chaos and August has been a big shit whole.
Within’ a 2 week period I found out 1. I was being audited by the IRS, 2. we almost got a divorce, 2. my husband quit his job, 3. my husbands old job decided to attempt to prosecute him, 4. my husband had to obtain a lawyer 5. I got the mirena and it caused headaches every day, constant sweating, abdominal pain, and a period that was pretty much non stop (2 days off, 2 weeks on, 2 days off, 2 weeks on)… ugh… I’m sure I’m forgetting plenty. My parents have had a shit storm of their own on top of our shit storm, ours being MUCH worse, but of course my mom is all about herself in her old age and all she can do is come bitch about how horrible her life is and all I was to say is shut.the.fuck.up.I.have.my.own.shit.to.deal.with.
In all the negative, I’ve been trying… TRYING to focus on the positive in life.
My kids are healthy.
The IRS audit will force me to get organized, when I finally START getting everything together.
Our issues that almost caused the divorce are starting to resolve and I feel we are so much stronger.
I’m so thankful my husband finally quit his job, he had been miserable!
My husband started his own new shop and it’s doing so well.
I supported our family almost 100% on my own income for the past 2 months, doing photography, with my very own successful business.
The Lord ALWAYS provides.
The lawyer we obtained it looks like will NOT be needed because my husbands ex-employers lawyer has informed them that they really have no case.
We got big into church for a while and then in the last year we’ve kind of… well… dwindled away from it. I believe, I am a Christian, but I am a sinner most definitely. Our church was EXTREMELY anti-gay.. well, anti LGBT I guess would be a better word for it. It’s really hard to go and hear them hate on people. I feel like as a christian, even if you do not believe in gay marriage, you also DO believe you are supposed to love everyone, respect everyone, forgive peoples mistakes. Same sex marriage is now legal and they are STILL being extremely disrespectful. I feel that they need to… put their big girl panties on and get over it. Move on. They lost their battle. Our pastor fights, like REALLY fights for straight biblical marriage. Like he’s very well known, on the news, goes to washington, speaks about it. But, there’s a difference between stating your belief and being down right hateful. So, I’m trying to focus on my faith in other things… being a good wife & mother. Realizing that if my house isn’t pinterest perfect, I WILL survive. Miss Ava Mae is my absolute last baby ever and I want to savor every minute of her baby-hood.
Speaking of Ava Mae, she is my hugh maintenance diva baby. She OBVIOUSLY couldn’t be easy like my other babies. She’s getting better though. 4 months old and the tallest and skinniest of all my babes. God obviously had a plan for my family because not only was I absolutely NOT wanting another child when I got pregnant with her, but if I’d had her first, I probably would NOT have had any more children and our family would not have been the same without the other 3.
Our not-divorce-divorce was over my lovely hubs making major financial and life changing decisions without me. I was over being along for the ride. I wanted financial freedom, he wanted debt. we just weren’t meshing well. I think after multiple days of full on screaming at him, he just about has the point. Our other issue was sex. I am a sexual being. Before him I would have totally hooked up with a chick, I loved sex. I loved men. I loved boobs. I felt like once a week or ever two weeks just wasn’t cutting it. Let me put it this way, I was reading all 3 50 shades of grey books every week. When we do it, the sex is good, vanilla, but good. I’m a freak and he gets freaked out. lol BUT, it’s getting much better. I’ve honestly been so busy and exhausted the last two weeks to do it by the time we hit bed anyway, BUT, we’ve done it at least once a week which is better than once every two weeks. Once the baby is sleeping through the night better and goes to sleep at a certain time it will be MUCH better.
The miners IUD sucked ASS for me. Went back and they swapped it out for the Paragaurd which I’ve had before and loved. majority of the side effects from the mirena stopped immediately, the periods took a few weeks to adjust back again so I’ve finally been like 2 weeks period free. THANK.GOD. A period for almost 6 weeks straight sucks when you just had a baby and blead for like 3 weeks straight as it was. I did not need any more blood in my life.
Well, I’m exhausted, we went hiking this morning, then to a car show and walked around in 90 degree weather, and now we’re home discussing what to eat for din din.
Happy labor day!
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