Things have been relatively okay between me and my husband. I told him I wanted the rest of the summer to spend with my kids before I get a job. The kids go back to school the end of August so thats when I will start looking. I'll start saving up to find my own place. I think that's going to be the tough part. I need a place with 3 bedrooms and rent is ridiculous here. It will all just depend. We talked about setting up an account for the kids to put money into just for their needs, like school supplies and school clothes, sports and other activities. Things like that. I'm scared and anxious how the future is going to look. We haven't talked much about when we would tell the kids and our families. He suggested waiting until the kids are settled in school, like October maybe. We agreed we didn't want to both be present when we tell our families. I'll tell mine on my own and he'll tell his. That's going to be really hard as well. Yet, despite all this anxiety and fearfullness, I already feel a little weight off my shoulders. Yes, there is still a lot of other weight to carry, but I think now that I'm feeling this way, its the right decision. I was not happy for a long time and lost me along the way. I want to regain who I used to be but also create a new side of me.
On a different note, my daughter caught a high ball in the outfield for softball tonight. She was so proud of herself. Her team wom, surprisingly because they haven't been winning many games this season, so the girls were super happy. They were going to play again tonight as a double header but a storm rolled through that brought a lot of lightning with it so they delayed the game at first but after the continuous lightning they ended calling it, thankfully, or we would be there probably until 11. Tomorrow they will probably have a double header again. Hopefully the weather will stay nice.
Thats all for tonight. Until next time
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