Feeling a lil down Thursday, January 06, 2005 in scarlet_dragon

I'm feeling a lil bit down right now b/c I haven't called Jenny yet like I told her I was going to and I really don't feel like calling her either that sounds mean I just really don't wanna hang out with all the people from HS sure I miss them but for one they all live like 10 mins away from where their meeting me I live about an hour or so more away #2 the place where they are meeting is majorally scary ville meaning not leaving your car their unattended at nite which mine is brand new and would probably get fucked up and #3 I can't drive at nite cuz I'm horrible at it and the fact I have no clue where it is that we would be meeting and I don't wanna be driving about scaryville at 11:30 midnight getting lost and probably getting shot by a gang..I know it sounds extreme but it's most likely true...so I'm depating when or even if I should call I guess I'm worried if I don't call she'll be pissed off at me and never talk to me ever again and she's umm yea my only friend.I would hope she wouldn't hold something like this against me but you never know how people can be I def. know she has blown me off before so she shouldn't be mad but when I call her she makes me feel bad and then is all like has things to say as to how I could be able to come and stay I dunno....AHHHHH ..sorry needed my moment of being able to scream.I guess I'll call her at like 10:00ish and tell her I'm just not going to be able to go and that's about it.I dunno guess I'll let you know how it goes.