This entry is TMI so any male readers may want to quickly ‘x’ out..
A few entries ago I wrote about that possible miscarriage thing. I still don’t know for certain what it really was, although after having a regular period right on time the next month, I pretty much feel it def was. Never the less I’ve had a gyno appointment scheduled with the health department I’ve been waiting on for the past THREE months. (Because I’m a “consultant” or contract worker for my company I get no insurance, soooo health dept it is).
So anyways, I’ve been waiting on this appointment for three months now so a) I can get back on bc and 2) to make sure everything is right down there.
I dont think I’ve written about it, but for the past 2-3 months there’s been pain during sex and so sex has pretty much become non-exsistant or we do it with major limitations and modifications. TMI but he is unable to go in even halfway before it starts to hurt. No matter how much lube or how slow he goes, it always hurts. The times I’ve tried to just take one for the team and see if it’ll be okay after a while always ended in more pain and blood.
I let the nurse know about that problem and the so-called miscarriage thing. When she was doing the examination she said she didn’t see anything wrong “down there” and it looked good. Surprisingly it wasn’t anymore painful than your typical pap, so I began to feel relieved. However, my blood pressure was super high and I was already told to come back in two weeks to get that checked out.
Because of the high blood pressure and my migraines they said I couldn’t be prescribed ortho-tricylin like I have been in the past and that I could only do the depo shot (hell no) or the “mini pill” aka a progesterone only pill. Has anyone ever taken that before? At the time I was happy to try something new because I heard mono phasic pills like the one they were giving me help with migraines. But then when I got home and read up on the pills I was kinda freaked out. I read a bunch of complaints and I have still yet to start taking it.
Anyways, so when I checked the mail today I was really shocked to see a letter form the health department saying “your results are not normal” and that I needed to come in ASAP to discuss results. Cue panic mode. I’ve never had “abnormal” pap results. Ever. I knew something was off but I guess I just figured it’d go away or whatever. Now I wish I had been more proactive about it. Oh well. I go in the morning to find out.
This really annoys me because I try to be super healthy. I’m not perfect by any means but I make my own damn bread for crying out loud just because I don’t want all those food additives and other chemicals in my or my kids’ bodies. I drink 3-4 L of water a day, cut out fake sugar, work out 4-5 times a week, very rarely drink. And it’s like for what?
But speaking of which, the only good thing to come from my appointment was I didn’t weigh as much as I thought. I really let myself go during the holidays and definitely over-indulged. So I was relieved when the nurse said I was 138.8lbs. Not that that is a good weight for me. I’m 5‘4 so extra weight is really visible and I can feel it in my clothes. But I have been doing a good job with sticking to good clean foods and going to the gym consistently. (then again it’s only the second week in Jan so I guess that’s not saying much! But hey it’s a start!).
Anyways, here are some comparison pics. This first pic is from Jan 2013 when I first really started my fitness journey. If you read me back on OD, you know my weight has been a struggle and I’ve tried every ridiculous fad diet known to man (Master cleanse, 3-day diet, 600kcal a day diet, etc etc). But, in Jan 2013 I was at my heaviest in recent years (back when I was 21/22 I was at my all time heaviest of 170 lbs – not including when I was pregnant of course). So anyways I finally started eating the right way and working out and not crash dieting. Over the past two years since then it’s still been a roller coaster. Some days more consistent than others. I wish I could’ve stayed more consistent and I’d be a lot better off now, but I wasn’t totally appalled by by Jan 2015 comparison pic:
And this before was from when I thought I was in good shape! What the hell. I was working out hard, but I guess my diet sucked. These pics are a year apart:
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