nervous habit Thursday, December 02, 2004 in scarlet_dragon

So I've always noticed I've got this nervous habit that I do but I've been really doing it a lot the last week or so mostly like the past 2 days I'll be sitting there not even knowing I do it and Kris will hit my hand to get me to stop b/c he knows I do it not even just when I'm nervous but also when I'm stressed or thinking or n-e thing in between my habit is that I play with my eyebrows I know everyone must think I'm weird but I've always done it I can't stop and I remember hearing a story about these kids that would pull their eyelashes out and such and I can't remember what it's called but when I was about 4ish I would pull out my eyebrows and my eyelashes and then save them which was the nasty part.....sure am glad I got over the habit(the things kids do)...but n-e who I think I've been doing it lately b/c I haven't gotten a chance to re-pluck my eyebrows so they've grown in and I just sit there playing around with them..AHHHH it's annoying but I can't stop...but enuff about that....I'm not looking forward to having lunch with my father yet again tomorrow or today since it's 12;30 at nite but he will finally have my check and then I can pay off my credit card and buy my new computer and then put the rest of it in my savings and a cd ...but I'm tired I didn't get much sleep last nite didn't go to bed till around 1:30 and Kris had to get up early to go to work and his alarm always goes off an hour before he actually would have to get up so it went off and then another one when he was supposto get up and he turned it off and didn't get up so I just thought it was still early well like 10 mins later I sit up and look at the clock and it's 8:30 and I know he was like I have to leave at 8:45 to get to work so I get up and get changed and such and i didn't say n-e thing to him and he like sits up and is like SHIT i have 5 mins to get ready so needless to say we both skipped umm like brushing the hair which doesn't matter to Kris b/c he has short hair and other stuff...lol so I walked out of the aparmtent and it's freaking snowing everywhere and freaking cold and I was hoping Kris's car would start again today or he would have been late but his car started up and I headed the hr drive back home zoning out b/c I was tired it's scary when you just drive and really don't remember how you got to where you did and are lucky you didn't like drive into someone else's car...so mom had the day off of work so when I got here I was freakin hungry but it was only like 10ish and she's like well do you wanna go to the Jcpennys' outlet and then we can go to parason's and the nursery next door to parason's which decorates for Christmas with all their trees and ornaments so we were shopping around and she had like picked up a sweater and was thinking about buying it for my sister for Christmas and when I saw it I was like oh that's cute just saying b/c I thought she was getting it for herself and she's like i dunno what to get ur sister and she like kept holding on to this sweater and I was like are you getting that for Emily and she's like I was thinking about it....Now this sweater was like the most awful thing I had ever seen...and my mom can usually get things that are sort of cute but this thing was ugly and I was like in all honesty I don't think she will wear that and YES I KNEW MY SISTER WOULD HAVE HATED it she's the one that wears only name brand clothing and is sooo particular about her stuff and she's like well what about you and I'm was like just standing there and obviously she got the hint so I picked up a not too ugly sweater set that she had orginally picked out I felt bad b/c she's like I guess I just like it b/c it would be something I would wear and hung it back up I felt bad I just wanted to say yea I like it and wear it only when she was around I mean I feel bad when she likes something and I'm like uhhh yea...sooo that was a fun expirence so we went to Parason's the italian place to eat and then looked at Christmas decorations and then we went to the mall near our house looking for a Hallmark but there wasn't one in there and just looked around they were freaking packed for a Wed at like 1 in the afternoon when we were walking out of the mall I saw a person wear a sweatshirt that had the name of my HS on it and my new house is like an hour away from where I went to HS and mostly no one ever went to this mall from my old HS and I look up and it was a girl from my class that I had not really been good friends with but she was a friend and all she said was hi and I'm like hi and that was it so it was pretty odd and I felt like a total scrub b/c I was wearing like 2 day old clothes and my hair was all over the place and I've been sick but after all that my mom and I went home and later went to Hallmark b/c mom wanted to get my the Barbie Princess and the Pauper ornament b/c she gets us an ornament every year and the freaking thing was 19.00 which I was sorta bumed but she still got it for me and then we had chinese at our fav place which was yummy and that was pretty much my day fun yes I know ...I'm done with everyone's Christmas gifts..fun yes I know now if you'll please excuse me I've talked loooon enuff so I'm off to sleep b/c I know my dad said he would be here at noon so that mean he'll probably be here at like 11:45 and I set my alarm for 11:30 soo he'll just have to wait outside if he's here early lol welp nite nite ttyl and bty HALO 2 Rocks my socks off I played at Kris's last nite for about 7 hours lol I'm just about as bad as him with the whole video game thing lol welp c-ya