So March flew by. I still dont know WTF im doing. This month I am 90% done cleaning out my mom's old room,I have 6 bags and 4 boxes of things to be donated. I also have a carp ton of stuff I want to sell (Mainly old DVDs, books and a walker, wheelchair and some commode liners, which BTW Facebook marketplace won't let you sell walkers)
Anyhop. Middle of the month we had a really bad windstorm and my power was knocked out for about 15 hours, That was a fun night because it was really cold as well. Didn't lose any food so thats a good thing, I came to the conclusion that since I live near a walmart my power gets a bit more priority to get back on, because theirs was out for a few days (Threw off my grocery schedule too cause I try to go every week on monday, found that easier to do than stock up every couple weeks, plus it makes me feel worthwhile)
I mean, the paralysis demon is still strong, but i need to do stuff. I just feel like a burden, worthless, lousy, and good for nothing. I am gonna start looking for remote stuff (I might of talked about this last month IDK) because of my situation. Still thinking about voice work but that is really cutthroat and my voice while is probably one of my biggest things I dont like about me (I know shocking coming from me, Mr. Pessimistic) I think it would be fun and maybe a turnaround for my shattered ego and my super low level confidence. But I would need to learn things.
I know i talked about it a bit last month but I really think i'm gonna go for a nose piercing sometime (thats what the sales of stuff is going to go towards) probably a ring, I dont think a stud would look good on me and definitely not a septum piercing, out of all piercings in the world thats my least favorite. (That being said I would obviously never criticize someone with one cause if they like it thats all that matters) I would like to do it around my birthday because WHOO BOY THAT DAY IS GONNA SUCK. (Which coming from someone who loves birthdays is really saying something) I was talking about this last night with a friend, the last time I changed my appearance is when I grew out my beard but only because I kept getting carded and it was annoying, so that was a motivation. That and now that my mom is gone (This sounds weird) I would have probably heard about it everyday to the point i would have had to take it out and not put it back in. Silly i know but still. Also my entertainment budget is tied up at the moment.. for what you say?
The slay the spire board game has an expansion on crowdfunding ATM which is taking up all my entertainment (read: Survey) money and Brass pittsburgh is also on crowdfunding as well, but ill be late pledging that when I get my budget up again.. and I forgot in may new bullet stuff. all through the PayPal separate entertainment budget. (I am so thankful for that budget because id go nuts without it) I also got a small expansion for civoultion with my amazon credit (Which i got right back because of the program i am a part of to watch various tv things (mainly sports) to get various gift cards (9 times out of 10 ill do amazon the other time ill do PSN) (That was the pirates/mets opening day game which.. yeesh Skenes.
Video game stuff: I went through both outer worlds 1 and 2 again because they are fun games with fun music and a good story. Alongside that the two gacha games also did new patches, ZZZ is nearing the end of its 2.0 arc and it was fine. I liked the angels of delusion faction (idol group, ones a robot disguised as a human, another is an actual angel and the other is anxious, they are fun though especially aria (the robot) her one attack is literally smashing her butt into the enemy to a crowd chanting) HSR though.. Omg I have loved every part of this new planet (Planarcadia) it's so absurd, strange and off the walls goofy I love it. The final boss for the most recent patch was a robot version of Pom Pom, the Cute little conductor of the Train that the main character travels in) That and Sparxie is still so great, I love all elation plus this video is just PEAK:
Off topic i wish Prosebutt would make these videos BIGGER. (I love the part where sparxie is running away from the big baddies, and the part with sparkle (Its.. a long story with her) points a gun at her and it backfires with a paint explosion)
Finally back in january I got a fun little coffee table type book called Art but make it sports, it's a book that talks about famous sports pictures and compares it to art. It's really well done and the author is cool, it finally came this month. I enjoyed it.
Welp. I think thats all. Back to being worthless. But first some pictures of interest (read: Most of them are macaroni)
Idiot and Dork 1
Idiot and dork 2
I recently moved a bunch of games into her old room which im gonna convert into a studio of some sort but here's the games:
Games I dont play as much Plus my small boxed games.
Said book I was talking about.
So these pictures. Obviously the first picture is the Urn I got for her filled and in the final resting spot. The DVDs are two of her favorite TV shows (Dark shadows and Kingdom Hospital, for whatever reason there are about 3 copies of Kingdom hospital but I'll never get rid of them) and the stickers? Well. I was cleaning and saw some abandoned scrapbooking stickers. And pardon my language here, but my asshole ex brother, the bitch of his ex, the arrogant whelp of a harpy known as the exes mother and to an extent the bratty niece as well, basically all in some way cut my mom out of my nieces life, her only granddaughter ever. She wanted nothing more than to be a grandmother. (And I wasn't doing it because.. well too many reasons) and she had these stickers and scrapbooking stuff, and I just broke down. Thats all she wanted was a grandkid to love and those people took that only joy away from her. I had to rectify that. And I need to stop talking about it because im starting to tear up thinking about it. Fuck my brother and all the grownups involved.
The second picture was the last thing I ever really talked about with her, I found this mix in january and I was talking to her in the hospital about it and she thought the sounded really good and I was gonna make it when she came back. That never happened obviously but I made it this month and TBH.. it was good.
And finally:
Sparxies ultimate attack. Its great. Come and party with Sparxie til the end of the world!
So thats it:
My go fund me is still going if anyone has stuff to donate. I'm looking at some big expenses:
Any help would be greatly appreciated (I actually talk a bit about my entertainment budget in there, I keep those separate from all other expenses, and any money goes straight into the house account and it goes for bills) I need 45% more for the goal.
Edit: I forgot. I posted my GFM on the subreddit dedicated to this, and It got deleted because "I was deleting things" the mods were not helpful. (It was either because I kept deleting my posts because it kept showing some information that was private or I deleted other reddit posts) But the mods were really rude and that really was a gut shot cause I was hoping for a bit of help there.
Thank you.
Have a good day/month/week/whatever.
Keelah Se'lai.
me.
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