Monday

cloudy

oh man what a weekend.. I dont know where to start.. the burial that i was at kinda overwhelmed me, so i was already in a bad mood. then i had to spend the entire day with my ex at the gig. which went kinda fine. but then at some point she said sth to me that triggered a whole load of feeling worthless.. not being good enough and stuff.. and it wasnt even a mean thing, just a small hint for the stage.. and it just sent me downhill REAL fast.
so ya... bad saturday.. then we had a small argument on stage (the band, not her and me) and ya.. just a load of mental stress

came home at like 4 am
slept for like 5 hours, bcs today, i have an early shift so i cant sleep in before an early shift. otherwise i would never be able to go to bed in the evening.. 
did do some selfcare before bed.. stretching and stuff.. gonna make some healthy routines again. always slacking during winter with those. dunno why. but in winter i just wanna game all day every day..

been more active again lately. walks on my days off and such. good times are ahead.. (for sure lol..)

welp.. todays a good day at work at least.. but i am very tired.. 
had a nice exchange with a collegue from a different department and i think i found some synergies.. new project aquired? maybe? maybe not. will pitch it to the boss in a few minutes... we'll see.

so now we zero the clock. Just me and this no-name world.