Laying In Bed Monday, June 21, 2004 in scarlet_dragon

So I'm just sitting here in bed listening to music while typing out an entry that's one reason why I love my laptop even thought it's really been making me angry lately.Kris told me he would make me a new desktop but I really don't know if that's what I want or not I know if I would go buy a computer I would love to have a laptop but like the ones I want are around 1,000-2,000 and then there are some really good deals for desktops but I don't want to be sitting in a chair when I can sit in bed unless I got a really nice chair to sit in a big ol' comfy one and then I would just want the whole deal a nice desk and that plastic mat so I can wheel the chair around and then I can do all sorts of work from the computer which is ultimally what I would really want but I don't know if I get a desktop then if Kris and I do end up getting a house together we will have 2 computers,and I really don't know how great that would be,I know he doesn't like me being on his computer so he gives me a different profile to use and I know that's just b/c I don't know n-e thing about computers so I tend to just download whatever I want and he doesn't like that cuz he's Mr.Computer geek lol ...so I'll have to think about it for awhile don't know I just feel like a lot of things are hanging over my head like where am I going and such what kinda job am I going to do cuz I would like to spend my life with Kris but he doesn't seem ready for that yet...so he's also not looked into house and such so there's a lot of things that need to be decided b/c I feel that I'm waiting around to get an answer if he feels we are meant for each other or not,and I don't want to wait around if he's wants to do this then he wants to if not then I guess we're not meant to be and I'll have to look elsewhere.There is only a month and 5 days till our 3 year anniversary.Dont' know what to do for that if I should plan something or he will,knowing my luck he'll probably work and completely forget about it all...but that's typical i don't expect him to remember that allthought he remembers the month and day of the week we first had sex ....and I don't even remember when that was...oops ..guess somethings are more important to other people lol.I wish Kris would have something really romantic planned for our 3 year annv...I mean hello we've been together for 3 years now...it would be nice to do something we use to give cards every month on our annv...but then after a year of that it sorta died out but that was my doing it was getting sorta pointless and costs a lot for cards so now we only give them to each other on yearly annv. and on holidays like Valentine's Day and Sweetests Day....(def a lot cheaper lol). but we shall see that remindes me I guess I do need to go get a card for that and plan something well actually i probably shouldn't plan anything cuz he'll probably work that always has a way of happening to me after I plan something for us to do....Well enough of my blabbing about Kris and I he said he would talk to me later so I guess I'll turn on my aim and see if he get's on-line or not ttyl