These days fly by and I can’t seem to get stuff done. I am nervous about my new responsibilities at work. I’m not exactly sure what I’m doing. And that’s a scary, scary thought! I don’t have a team built yet, so I am on my own. I have weekly meetings with my boss, but she has so much other stuff on her plate…I guess it’s sink or swim time! So what do I do? I procrastinate by writing.
Funny, though. It seems to make me feel better. Like I’m at least getting some of this stuff that’s bubbling up in side me out. And it’s not really like I’m bitching to anyone. I hate to sound like a whiner. I suppose that if I can get all my whining out here, then I won’t have to whine to the “real” people in my life! I know, I know…that’s great in theory. Oh well, I don’t really need to justify it to myself—it just makes me feel better, dammit! That’s reason enough.
So, I’m on my lunch break right now. I’m feeling overwhelmed and a little exhausted. I thought about going out and running errands during my break, but a lot of times I come back to work feeling even more frazzled than when I went out. But it’s kind of frazzling to be sitting here writing an entry, while writing an e-mail to my ex-boyfriend, while surfing the net for home decorating ideas!! At least I am sitting here…not running all over creation! No, that will happen when I leave work!
*rolling eyes* …I just got an e-mail from Dude. He’s a guy I’ve been seeing off and on for several months now. Sheesh. He was a friend of mine—drinking buddy, actually—for several years. We started “dating”…or whatever you want to call it…back in November. Talk about a waste of my time. I guess it was a good thing, though. He was the one who finally got me to break up with my ex-boyfriend. Long story, I know I’ve got lots of time to tell it, so I won’t do that now! Anyway, Dude. Talk about mixed signals!! I think I’ll have to sit down and write an entry or two about him too! We send these one-liners to each other off and on throughout our days. It’s gotten ridiculous!
So. I have now used up my whole entire lunch break. Procrastination at it’s finest! I better run right now. I’ll be back soon, I’m sure!!
Hasta…
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