Quick morning entry.
Sometimes I wonder if Boss has been reading my OD. She gets meaner by the day. I borderline hate her now, and it pains me to say that. I don’t want to hate anyone…especially not someone I have to deal with day in and day out, and someone who has so much control over my life.
But guess what? Boss informed me yesterday that she hired the New Guy. I already knew because his name’s already on the org. chart (someone else informed me of that)!! New Guy is gonna be my new boss.
Not sure how I feel about that yet. What New Guy will be is another layer to my decision-making, and I am about to have a heart attack over it! If you think I’m second-guessing myself now, wait until there is one more person to disagree with my decisions.
Or agree. That would sure be nice at a time like this. There was a time when I rocked. I was awesome at what I did. I’d really like that back. Maybe he’ll be the buffer between Boss and me that I so desperately need.
From now on, Boss will be called Big Boss (fitting in so many ways), and New Boss will get a better name when I figure out his personality.
The sucky thing is, New Boss starts Monday. I’ll be in New York until Wednesday. Big Boss will already have her claws in him. I really wanted a chance to stroke him before Big Boss sticks her sausagy paw prints all over him. Bleaaaahhhh!
Oh well. I’m not saving babies. This job should not be my life. And if it gets so terribly bad, I can always leave. I want to go in with a good attitude. I really do. New Boss could be the best thing that’s ever happened to my career.
If not, I can always try the Jeff route. I’d still like to work for him, even though I’d also like to fuck him. Dangerous, but exciting, no? His area is the best area in the company right now. Jeff’s brilliant, and I’m not saying that simply because I picture him naked every time I see him. I’m saying that because it’s the truth. I’d go so far as to mop floors (almost) in his area. But Big Boss has to put her blessing on a move to another area. And she’s been such a bitch to me lately. I’ve heard about her really screwing with peoples’ careers…even people who thought that they were friends with her!!
So there’s also Gary. I’d have to move to Chicago. I like Chicago. I’m just not used to the cold. And I wouldn’t be close to Mom and Dad…and who would take care of Kitty when I travel…and…and…
I don’t know. Lots of change on the horizon career-wise. I hate that work is the only thing going on in my life right now.
Speaking of life, Hy finally called me. I talked to him yesterday. I’m not so sure about him. He is such a cutie-pie, but he’s also so into the see-and-be-seen thing. He has to go out every night and he worries about his social status. He is huge into music and film, which is fantastic. But he feels he must be at the hippest places at the right time, and “so-and-so was here”, and “I’m going there”, and “I’m hanging with such-and-such crowd”, and “there were a bunch of directors there that you wouldn’t know..” , etc. Like he’s so much more in-the-know than I am.
When he spent the night, he brought over some music. Like I wouldn’t have any of my own. He felt he must teach me coolness or something. I loved the compilations he brought over. In fact, I knew every song!! He couldn’t believe it. I knew the words to practically everything. Now wouldn’t that make you happy? Like, you have the same tastes and stuff? I guess not for Hy, because he seemed to challenge me after that, bringing more and more obscurity into the picture….testing me.
Our phone conversation got like that again last night. I can’t really explain.
Oops. This entry got a little longish. I gotta run, or I’ll be late for MY LIFE…I mean, work!
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