I realize that with the fragile state of my ego, this isn’t the smartest thing I’ve ever done, but eh..whaddya gonna do? I just hit the send button:
[Canuck],
Okay. It’s taken me a long time to write this one, but I really feel like I need to send you a note simply because I’m concerned and just a little confused. For all I know something horrible has happened and I just don’t know about it. This will be my last attempt to contact you. If I don’t hear from you, I’ll finally consider the silence to be closure and that will be that.
I truly hope that things are going really well for you. I hope that your job search proved fruitful and you’re healthy and happy.
I’ve been to NY many times since we last saw each other in [my city] in February. The trips have all been great (except for all that rain), but each time I feel unsettled…like unfinished business. I’m sorry about that phone call from [Maria] last month. She was drunk and she was asking about you, and I was drunk too. I guess I was just very curious about what was going on with you but too chicken to call you myself.
The thing is, you always left yourself an out. And I always understood and appreciated the fact that you were open and honest about “us”. Whatever we were. If you didn’t like the way things were going, you could have very easily told me that you’d met someone else. Whether that be true or not was up to you. I always had that option myself. It was cool.
But to disappear. I don’t understand that. Especially from you.
Look, I don’t pine away for you.[Ed note: could be a small exaggeration] But I do wonder what happened to you. I had fun with you.
Ever,
[G.]
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