As I begin to calm down ever so slightly in this relationship, Grrr seems to have started to ratchet his insecurities (or whatever they are). Hes getting really sensitive to things like my intonation and facial expressions, and ugh its getting really annoying. Im sure hes annoyed too. Is this too much togetherness?
Good news is hes traveling a lot during the week, so that means Ill have at least one or two nights a week when were not together (and more when Im traveling). I think this will be a good thing. But its so weird that Im thinking about this so early on.
Heres the deal: he started in on the moving in together conversation while I was overseas. I had a couple of panic attacksand yes, one of them sparked the email heard round the world. He assured me that it was only daydreaming and that wed cross that bridge when it was necessary (read: his lease was up). YET! Two days later (two days before my return to the US), Grrr sent me another email saying that his neighbor asked if he could sublease Grrrs apartment since hes never there anyway.
Thats what led to our early roommateship. He needed to know right then and there, and told me that hed be able to move out in a moments notice if need be (can move to brothers pad if necessary), and that it wouldnt be all his stuff, etc. etc
So I caved and told him that the two month thing would be okay as long as we have a back up and continue the way weve been handling things. They seemed to be working out well.
Now well, well see.
Dont get me wrong, Im into him. Waaaaaaay into him. To the point where I would be really, really sad if this thing blows up in our faces. I am in love with him. Or at least big, big, really big Like.
He makes me talk about things. And thats so good. For someone who has a hard time opening up, I do pretty well with him. Improving anyway. I just hope he continues to strive for open communication and doesnt freak out like I do. After all, someones got to remain sane!!
Im preparing back up plans just in case.
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