Finally! An evening alone, alone, ALONE!!!
Why does this feel sooooo deliciously decadent?? And I don’t even have children (or the step-kiddos…yet). It’s just that Grrrrr is out of town, and I didn’t even want to go out and play. I’m home alone, curled up in my robe (and a cat) and watching Peanuts specials on TV. And finally having some time to write a little bit without fearing that I’ll get caught either at work or by a semi-sleeping fiance.
So. Here’s the deal: I DID IT!! I turned 40, and it didn’t even hurt one bit! Perhaps I’ll post pix o’ The Party in a faves-only entry. Or perhaps my lazy ass won’t get to it. But I’ll tell ya…we had the most fantastic time.
We did have a bit of stress getting ready, what with just moving a couple of weeks ago and all, but I have to say (like I told EVERYONE at the party) that Grrrrr is a dream come true where putting a home together is concerned. I am soooo lucky to have a neat, clean, stylish guy as a partner. It’s as close to living with a best girlfriend or gay guy as I really want to come. But he is the most awesome and gracious co-host, and I love him so much for that.
So the loft came together, the bubbles were chilled, the catered platters were set, the candles were lit, and the party was in full force by 8:00pm on Friday night. And what an amazing crowd. From my parents to my co-workers to some new neighbors to Nabe…it was such a cool and diverse group. Nobody acted like a drunk jerk (including ME!), although there were some really happy people (including ME!). Grrrr was so adorable playing cocktail waiter and cracking jokes with everyone.
I got prezzies and flowers and wine and well wishes and…OH so much fun!!
And then it was winding down by around 11:30, and I’ll tell you, I was ready for bed by midnight (what an OLDIE I am!). So you know how parties go, somebody leaves and the whole crowd kinda thins out. And then, of course! The latecomers show. Turned out, the new neighbors and Grrrrr’s friend John showed up last and hung out for a while while Grrrrr and I snacked and drank our last few gulps. The nabes left and then we packed up John (the bachelor) with a bunch of food and sent him on his way.
And then (oh joy!) it was time to crash.
Grrrr and I both knew that we were going to have to get up super early in time to get to the church (8:45AM on a SATURDAY MORNING) to attend a pre-marital seminar. Yes, we are doing a lot of this stuff lately. Pretty much my doing, but Grrrrr is going along with it (and learning quite a bit I have to say–even though he thinks he’s an “expert” on marriage simply because he’s already had 10-years’ experience…I think he’s realizing a LOT as we go through these exercises).
And that was good.
Then an evening at the movies on Saturday night and a late-night run for (aaaiiiieeee!) MEXICAN FOOD!!
And then a relaxing Sunday with no stresses.
What a perfect weekend!
Seee? I can do this. It’s not all sad faces and confusion and anger for me. And yes, I continue to struggle and work on my issues and my fears and my commitment stuff, but I am trying SO hard. I really am. And I’m willing and able to work on it and I continue to stumble sometimes and even fall occasionally, but I’m NOT going to give up easily. Not this time. No. Way.
And aaaah yes! Here I am, enjoying a “free” night with a nice glass of left-over bubby and the TV and my trusty laptop. Just like old times! And it’s times like these when I remember who I am at the core: a bit of a loner with a hopeful heart and a lot of love to give (and finally a place to aim all that energy).
Possibly more to follow…(with photos?)
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