Super-Chunks 2008 in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

So much to do and now only 8 months to do it! I’m glad I’ve had time to just relax and tell myself that there’s plenty of time, but NOW is the time to really get on the stick! We still need music for both the wedding ceremony and reception, decisions on the menu, dresses for Best Bud (maid[tron]?) of honor), TFMS’s daughter (flower girl….or blumen madchen, as he calls her!), my mom, tuxes for all the guys, the invitations, securing the photographer, rehearsal dinner stuff, figure out how the kids are getting here (didn’t get this out of the X while on the trip..!), our faux-honeymoon (a trip we’re taking with the kids while they’re here), our honeymoon (a cruise? When? How?), my hair/makeup concepts, the dress alterations, securing both wedding bands….and on and on the list goes, but those are the biggies. I’m sure I’m forgetting stuff, but that’s why I need to break this stuff down!

Um. Yeah. I still have my job and all, but I’ve been doing lots of thinking about what I can do to put myself into a better position—either get a promotion or add some value to my job. See, I’m still in this kind of risky position that’s a little bit like a consultant, and as we see the scary things that are happening to the economy, I see my position as being fairly easy to eliminate. What can I do? Honestly, I think the biggest and most immediate thing I can do is just go the extra mile and make myself much more visible to my internal customers. THEN I can worry about adding additional expertise to my repertoire. I mean, let’s be completely frank here, I slacked off at the end of the year—I know I did and I’m sure it shows. Time to get back on the ball.

And time to stay ON the track! My December challenge will be over today, and I’ve already signed up for a new one in January (though I’d like to mix things up…this new one is simply the same thing, different month). So far, I’ve run 103 miles in December. The leader of this challenge is at 110. It’s over today. I’m going running after this entry (at some point). I’ll let you know how it goes. Bottom line, I’m pretty happy with the way things are going—just need to keep it up and mix it up a little this year. I’d really like to have shapely arms and upper body for the wedding since my dress is strapless and simple. I’m not sure how to do this (besides weights—perhaps the only way to do this?). But yeah, shapely arms, shoulders and back would be really, really nice. And let’s not forget the glutes and thighs. These will be important AFTER the wedding ceremony!

And yes. Last year I hooked the guy and got him to propose (hah!). I know that getting married does not end the challenge (and BOY, what a challenge!!). I want us to both work on this for the rest of our days because we all know what happens when we stop working on these things, don’t we? Last year was tough. I struggled with and fought the idea of compromise and settling. We’ve both gone through huge upheavals. For him, I saw this firsthand over Christmas in Germany with his kids. For me, I’ve really made some drastic changes in my drinking habits and just general stubbornness. We both have our work cut out for us, and I know it’s a long road. But I want it to be a road of laughter and joy and jokes and wonderment more than it is a tearful struggle. Time for big attitude adjustments. I’m getting there. I’m complaining less. I’m trying to be less of a “victim” and I have to remember that this world is mine for the taking. All I need to do is practice and realize that we’re in a constant state of flux and staying in sync is easier when you’re listening to the beat and feeling the rhythm. Hmmm. Not sure how to break this one down…but I know I have a pretty good start. Will revisit this later.

Okay!! Time to get on with the day! I have a sleeping fiancé in the bed, a few miles to run, coffee to make and OHHHH! So many stories to write about the Germany trip/adventure! I have a million pix to post and a jillion stories! Good, bad, and not so pretty! Hee!