I had to write yesterday’s entry in a hurry, and I’m in a little bit of a hurry this morning too. I feel like I want to follow up with a clarification, but I really can’t. The Therapizer actually said something like (again, I paraphrase):
I’m not telling you to go out and do this, but you COULD…blah, blah, blah (stop taking the pill and get pregnant).
And he didn’t just say it once during the course of the session, he said it twice. And I think that the point he was trying to make is that TFMS doesn’t REALLY have ALL the control and that I DO still have control of my own body, if you think of it that way. And that TFMS would come to love that child, of course. But still, I was shocked by the whole thing, and I would never, EVER do that–no matter how desperate I am.
So there you go. And now I’m pretty convinced that I need to get a new therapist. The thought of that exhausts me. But then the thought of anything right now exhausts me. I’m even debating whether or not I should go to the gym in a few minutes.
*sigh*
TFMS invited me to dinner last night and I guess I’m being sickly and kind of a downer. He actually asked me if I wanted to give him the old heave ho…as in break up with him!! What the?
I said no way and then explained to him that I’m just feeling run down–physically and emotionally. And all of that is true. I don’t want to tell him what The Therapizer said because he’d have a FIT! I usually tell him alllll about our sessions, and TFMS and I usually have pretty constructive conversations afterwards, but this one? No way.
I fell asleep last night around 8:45. I woke this morning at 7:45. I feel better, but still groggy.
What a sucky entry.
Remind me to tell you how wacky things are at work. That’ll be a fun entry! Let’s see: drunken bosses, missed meetings, memory lapses, possible embezzlement (??)…oh the SCANDAL! All we need now is a torrid affair!
Oh…I forgot one of my favorite pix from the photo entries, so maybe this will brighten the mood:
TFMS’s ex-SIL’s dog. The sweetest, most friendly, gentlest LOVER!!
Out for now!
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