Wellllllll. I started an entry yesterday. Oh, and the day before that. But I just cant seem to get exactly what I want to say out and onto the screen. I appreciate each and every note and I take it all to heart. The more opinions the better because it makes me see perspectives in several different lights, and for that I am grateful.
The fact of the matter is: Im thrilled with the way things are right now. TFMS and I are working through TONS of issues. Neither of us is perfect by any means. I would say that I have just as many issues as he does. The kid thing for us is just a bit trickier for reasons Ive already listed in entries past.
We WILL come to a meeting of the minds. I have no doubt. These are bigger issues that require more than a simple tick on a list. People shift, change and adjust every single day. So even if we DO come to a simple agreement for now, that doesnt mean that the topic is closed for good. Weve both put our feet down on several issues. Weve both expressed strong opinions on LOTS of topics. Weve also both made adjustments that make the BOTH of us happy. Or at the very least, content for the time being. Ask us both again tomorrow.
Nobody has to understand (though many already do). Im a very, very happy woman right now. And this sure beats whining and crying about a shitty relationship or the fact that I have NO love in my life (BOTH of which I have done in the fairly recent past).
Im lucky to have such a special person in my life. I cherish that man. I know in my heart, my head, and in my gut that we were brought together for a reason. We are learning so many lessons together and I have no doubt that we will grow with each other every single day.
And YES, its been a lot of work and struggle. If it were easy I dont think Id be nearly as happy as I am right now. I feel like Ive been given both a challenge and a gift. And every time I choose to take on that challenge Im rewarded with another gift. Little things will build upon the other. You can stack the little things either way: for good or for not-so-good. And sometimes the scales sway back and forth. And some days you get a doozie that will tip your scale.
Yes, what a challenge. What an opportunity. What a thrill!
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