In My Wildest Dreams in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

  • April 14, 2008, midnight
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And here I am, back on yet another airplane, taking another trip. Have I told you lately that I’m starting to tire of travel? I don’t mind it maybe once a month, but this every week stuff is getting really, really old. TFMS and I both left on our trips this morning at the same time (that would be 5:30am!), and that was kinda fun. We shared a taxi and our gates were really close to each other, so I was able to say goodbye to him at his gate.

Boss Party Pants and I are together now for a few days. Oy. I’m NOT excited about that. We have a bit of a free day today (so to speak, getting ready for a big meeting tomorrow), but I know she thinks that means we can cut out early to go drinking. And I don’t want to!! I’m sure I’ll suck it up a bit and have one or two. But that’s really all I can handle nowadays anyway.

And then I’m hopefully meeting [CN] tomorrow for cocktails. I’m also getting another necklace from her. I lost the original safety pin necklace somewhere, and I loved that thing. She has one that has “B8” on it…that’s TFMS’s first initial + the date of our wedding. Cool, no?

We had a pretty fantastic weekend. It started off dumb enough (I’ll expound later), but ended up on such a high note.

Friday night we had dinner at one of my favorite Mexican places. TFMS doesn’t really like going there because it’s such a scene and it’s always crowded and he doesn’t really go for Mexican like I do (I’m a fierce Mexican food lover). Regardless, he agreed to go with me, and we did end up having to wait about a hour. The good news is, after we sat down and started eating, who should come bounding over to our table but Lovely Leah and her fiancé! They joined us for dinner, and that was such a nice surprise! Especially since I’d been wanting to hook up with Lovely for quite some time now and we just haven’t been able to get together. Last time we penciled in plans I called to see what time she wanted to meet, and she told me that she was doing a Girl Scout thing with her daughter instead and that she was sorry. I know, it’s a bit of a flaky relationship. But it’s okay. Because that give me the leeway to flake a little back from time to time.

Lovely and her guy got engaged a few weeks ago. And they are getting married in a month and ½! I can’t imagine! TFMS and I are down to less than four months and I’m having minor heart attacks from time to time. I don’t even want to write about the wedding right now. Does that tell you how…ugh….I am about the whole thing? Don’t get me wrong, I’m really thrilled and excited. And it’s actually a lot of fun planning and dreaming and working through all the details. It’s just more stressful than it needs to be. So many people put so much pressure on the damn wedding (I’m especially good at doing this to myself!).

Anyway, Lovely’s wedding is going to be very low-key and relaxed and I’ll be glad to go to her wedding because I think it will take a bit of the strain off. At least I hope so. I’m just hoping to see an easy-going wedding that goes off without a hitch so that I can feel more at ease about the whole thing.

And then there are the days when I can’t even believe that I’m getting….MALLIED! It’s just boggles my mind! How did this happen? And…finally, it’s happening to ME!! I’m so incredibly excited!

OK.

Saturday, I woke up and tried to get TFMS to go to the Farmer’s Market with me, but he was too sleepy to get up in time for me to go and then get to my class at the gym. So I let him sleep and went to class and ran on the treadmill. Got home to a clean, fresh loft (TFMS is such a clean freak and I LOVE that!!), and the fixins for lunch: sliders and salad…and BUBBLY! OH YEAH!! And it was a gorgeous, sunny day. So we decided to run a few errands and ended up sitting in the sun and drinking a beer on the patio of a dive bar, watching the college kids drink. It was also prom night for a lot of kids, so we also got the treat of seeing some of the early birds out and about, grabbing a bite for dinner. So sparkly and exciting! Remember that feeling?!

I asked TFMS if his kids will get to go to prom, and he told me that they have dances and stuff, but they don’t do prom. How strange to think that they’ll never experience that…but I guess they will experience other things—German things. I’m sure I will learn as we go along. It just feels like they’ll miss a little milestone that all teenagers experience (obviously not, but you know?). Weird.

And then. We talked about having our own. A baby. And yes, HE brought up the subject! And yes, he is now MORE than open to it…he’s actually excited about it!! I mean, we were taking baby names and everything! How things change. And change, and CHANGE!! The more we talk, the more understanding we gain. What an amazing process. What an unbelievable relationship this is! I could not be happier…just couldn’t!

Saturday night we went home and watched a move (Love in the Time of Cholera) while he did some work and I worked on our invitations. We got these GORGEOUS letterpressed invitations on super thick cardstock, and I’m working on painting the edges in gold—a very laborious task, believe it or not!

When SNL came on, we decided to watch it in bed. The loft is configured in such a way that we can swivel the TV in the living room to aim into the bedroom and watch from the bed. The only problem is that when I get horizontal, I tend to instantly fall asleep. I guess it’s a good problem to have, but we’ve discovered that we can’t watch movies in bed together because I will never, ever be able to stay awake and watch a whole movie. It wasn’t such a problem with SNL. I fell into the most glorious sleep and only woke up when TFMS belly laughed (because my head was on his chest).

Sunday morning came and we DID end up going to the Farmer’s Market to get some pasta and salmon and flowers for my mom. It was yet another beautifully sunny (but very chilly!) day, and we enjoyed it soooooo much. Got home and quickly showered and got ready to go to Mom and Dad’s. Picked up some lunch for all of us and made it to their house by noon. Mom is still sick with pneumonia. She has been inside the house for three weeks now. I’m hoping that she’ll be all well by the time the kids come (a few weeks before the wedding). We had such a nice visit, though. I’m so happy that my parents love TFMS and vice versa. It’s so easy to get him to go visit even though they live a little over an hour away from us. In the past I’ve had boyfriends who don’t really dig hangin’ with the folks, but TFMS has decided that he wants to help with a bunch of projects that he’s talking with my dad about, and that just fills me with so much joy. Really.

We also looked at a house on the lake (my parents live in a lake resort area), and TFMS got really excited about it, and honestly, the more I think about it, the more excited I am about it. It’s listed for practically nothing, but I also heard that taxes on the lakefront properties are insane, and if we’re getting married, trying to have a baby and TFMS is paying for two more kids, I’m not sure how it all is going to get paid for. And we’re still renting the loft…imagine owning a weekend house while renting the house we spend our day-to-day life in. Is that weird?

These things. I never thought I’d ever be in this place, ya know? It’s like a whole new world. What a rush!! I want to do everything…experience everything. But I’m not even sure where to start.

Well. As you might be able to tell, I’m off the plane. I’m in my hotel room. Tucked away and warm…even got out of drinking with BPP tonight (though I did watch her drink three glasses of wine at lunch…after she had two Bloody Marys on the plane). Not really looking forward to tomorrow, and we delayed our flight back home on Wednesday, but still, all is good right now.

Next step: jammies and sparkling water and dreams, dreams, dreams!


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