Is this really the anger stage? Mostly, I’m morbidly sad. And it is mixed with allllllll kinds of other things. Yes, anger. Guilt and regret. Shock. Fear. Anxiety.
I am wholly consumed with thoughts about him. NOTHING can get my mind off of him. I went to that pool party yesterday and sat next to a woman I didn’t even know and told her EVERYTHING!
I had some shopping to do yesterday, and sat outside at a Starbucks, and all these cars went by. EVERY white car reminded me of him. In fact, I thought about him driving by time and time again.
I’m scared that I’m melting down. I’m afraid I’m going to snap. I have more therapy on Monday, but what can I do to get my mind off of him in the meantime?
I am having brunch with a friend (who happens to be Best Bud’s ex husband). When EXMS met him, he thought that we were having an affair. GAH!
My parents are coming later today to drop off part of the daybed I’d let them have (EXMS hated it).
So yes, there are things to do. But EVERYTHING reminds me of him…even breathing.
I think I’ll go running now. The exercise helps a little.
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