And now. To counterbalance all the blucky schmudge, I present you with some GOOD.
Whenever Im feeling low, low, LOW, someone has always been around to keep me from simply slipping into a chasm of despair. Be it a phone call from a friend, a quick visit in my office, a note here on OD, or a whole family who has dedicated full days to making sure I was smiling (at least some of the time), I am so blessed to be surrounded by amazing, amazing people. Truly!!!
I will be forever indebted, and honestly dont even know where to begin to repay the kindness. I have learned some amazing lessons during this experience, and I know I will continue to do so as time goes on.
TMG continues to baffle me with his kindness. I cant even tell you how many times hes picked me right up off the floor and brushed me off and told me how awesome I am. And then, AND THEN .thanks me for being there for HIM???!
I get it, I do. We are two badly burned people who are clinging to this friendship for dear life. Although I think its for different reasons. I feel like I cling for a survival of sorts, and he clings with an expectation (even though he says over and over again that he has none).
Regardless, Im so very grateful for the attention from him, his kids, and his friends (of which he has many). He takes me places, even when Im not really in the mood. He makes me feel comfortable when Im talking about this stuff so comfortable that I sometimes find myself just crying and crying in front of him. And what does he do? He hands me a tissue and lets me cry.
He feeds me wine and dinner and lets me whine to my hearts content. It is so soothing. So very soothing. I am tempted to let down my guard.
But Im not there. So I wont.
Regardless, Im going to try to repay in ways that I can…to friends, family, and perhaps even mere strangers.
These are amazing lessons. People can do unfathomable things. For good, for bad. My eyes are truly opened.
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