I’m so weary from writing about EXMS. This very well may be the last entry I write about him. I’m not kidding. But something weird happened at therapy yesterday, and I just need to get this one out.
See, when EXMS started begging me via email to at least THINK about getting back together, I took all of the emails to the therapist’s office and read them to her. She told me that if and ONLY IF I wanted to, I should proceed with caution…that EXMS has a LOT of messed-up issues, and that because he’d been to a couple of appointments with me, she suggested that he might want to come in and see her on a solo basis.
And that’s what I recommended to EXMS. He was OK and willing to do that for the sake of our “relationship”. I knew he was scheduled to have an appointment while I was on my business trip, but I was pretty sure that he might cancel, you know, with him already being in love with someone else and all. And the fact that these therapy sessions were supposed to help him work on getting back together with ME (or at least figure out some shit).
So yesterday, I was kinda dying to know whether he showed up or not. And sure enough, he did. OK. This was THREE DAYS AFTER he told me that he was already with someone else.
And you know what else? He didn’t even TELL the therapist about the new LOVER. Now…she couldn’t tell me what he said (for confidentiality reasons), but she was shocked when I told her about the Dear Jane email he sent while I was gone. And she COULD tell me what he DIDN’T say. So apparently, he attended this session and he must’ve told her everything she expected to hear based on things that I’ve told her, and he actually set up yet ANOTHER appointment with her for next week or something.
And that’s when I told her that I was done…that I never want to speak with him, hear from him, or see him EVER AGAIN. And that it was too uncomfortable for me to have therapy with her if she was counseling him too. And she said that IF (a big IF) he actually shows up again (which she doubts), she’s going to refer him to someone else.
And again, I know I’ve wasted waaaaaay too much energy on EXMS, but I’m baffled as to why he would go to therapy (a couples counselor) and pretend like it was all-systems-go for a reconciliation between the two of us? Why would he lie like that, knowing that I would go see her a few days later with the story of what REALLY happened?
Does this make sense?
The therapist was baffled too.
It’s ridiculous. He is now officially the most odd-acting, cruelest, strangest person I’ve ever known. And I’m completely confused and sad. I really wish I could hate him. But I have nothing but question marks where he is concerned.
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