Why Did I Do That? in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

Crap.

Backslid a little bit. I guess I was feeling cocky, so I checked out Match.com to see what was going on out there. Should have known I’d see EXMS back on and raring to go. It stung a little, but it’s just starting to feel a lot like a boring rerun of last year. Remember? I was so broken up about it because his profile said he wanted everything that I was/am. He described me to a T. And he posted all of those pictures of “us” with me cut out or pix that I’d taken of him. He also wrote about how he was divorced (and has been for 4 years), but never mentioned that he was engaged for well over a year (how convenient…being engaged doesn’t count as being as serious as married)! His kids were in town and he was trying to date all kinds of women? Well, his kids are on the way in a couple of weeks, and they’ll be here for 6 weeks (I think).

Yawn. Boring, boring rerun. I don’t need this!!

I’m also kind of peeved at TMG, who is proving himself to have a a bit of a broken moral compass. I still adore him, and he’s still a GREAT friend, but one of those friends that needs to be kept at arm’s length for sure. We’re good enough friends to share things that friends share about dating, etc., and it’s not that I’m jealous by any means because you know I don’t have “it” for him.

But damn. The guy gets around. And around and around. And he does things that I don’t think are quite on the level. It’s not that they are HORRIBLE or illegal or anything…just things that make me think…if he can “get away” with something, he’ll do it.

And the thing about it is, he’s background is so eerily similar to EXMS’s. I’m sure that’s what attracted me to him in the first place, but…my instincts seem pretty dead on here. I think it’s a VERY good sign that I recognized and honored the bells and alarms that were going off inside, and I’m SOOOOOO glad I didn’t get caught up in any of the “moments” that presented themselves very early on with him. I’m actually quite proud of myself for that. So glad I didn’t mix myself up with him romantically.

Will I keep him as a friend? Yes. I don’t agree with everything he does, but then I don’t always agree with everything that my other friends do either, and that doesn’t mean I have to ditch them as friends. I share what my issues and beefs are, and as long as they are not hurting anyone else, then we’re square. So. There you go.