PIC OF THE DAY!
Photo prompt=HANDS and FEET. Here are my tootsies. I got these in Alaska. I bought two pairs, one for me and one for EXMS’s daughter. We were twinsie tootsies for a while. It was so sweet.
TODAY…
1. I’m really thankful for CC’s friendship and insight
2. I’m keeping the ball rolling on projects, even if it is slower than I’d like, progress is progress!
3. Happy for the season and seeing people smile and laugh
4. Thankful that I’m still smiling and laughing!
5. Thankful for the opportunities that are coming…I can FEEL them!
Well, hello Friday!
It appears I have a date with Daniel tonight. Unfortunately, it’s a bit anticlimactic after all of our back and forth on email and text. It was like pulling teeth trying to figure out what is going on between us, and we still don’t have that sorted out. I’m hoping that tonight brings a little more clarity to that situation. We shall see.
The Situation! Heh. I’m not watching Jersey Shore, but that guy (The Situation) seems to be all over the place now, and I think it’s hilarious! I should give myself a name like that. What would mine be? The Confusion? The Discombobulation?! Ha! I’m so happy I’m no longer leaving this open for anonynotes. I can only imagine…
Last night with CC was actually quite nice. He really is a decent guy who is finally ready to settle down again. I think we started off on the wrong foot, and I wish he’d kept his bachelor ways a bit more under wraps with me. I don’t think the strippers and the threesomes are really part of his true being. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not discounting that stuff. I think he just got caught up in being single again after 20+ years of marriage. The fact that he is a very handsome and very wealthy bachelor gives him pretty easy access to some shenanegans, and I feel like he just took advantage of his “situation”, if you will.
I’m still not attracted, but there’s something about his company that is really comforting to me. I feel safe with him and comfortable just talking and talking. He’s a fantastic listener and he let me go on and on last night about my fears and feelings.
He thinks that I’m my own biggest obstacle, and of course he’s right. He tells me that I have so much to offer someone, but that I need to just LET GO. I suppose that I have a bit of emotional hoarder in me. I have the hardest time purging these feelings and then flushing them away. It is really obvious. Yeah, it’s not that I have a hard time talking or writing about them, but I guess that as long as I keep writing and talking about my broken heart and broken spirit, they continue to be open wounds. Seriously, it’s time to let this shit HEAL. Leave it alone. Stop picking the scabs!!
But back to CC. I’m excited about his ventures. He’s starting on something new, and he was having a conversation with his attorney when I got to his place, and it’s thrilling to hear his excitement. I love to hear passion like that in someone’s voice. It is contageous. I really wish him lots more success, and I don’t need to wish. He makes it happen, and I’m inspired by that.
Anyway, we drank and talked and then he took me to dinner. Even though we are now in friends territory, he still treated me very much like a date. I’m not sure if he’s given up or not. Not 100% sure how I feel about that, but I’m not going to question it fully right now.
I called Cindy last night to see if she wanted to chat about some things, but I haven’t heard back from her! Hmmm…perhaps I’ll wait to ask the big favor. There are worse things than an hour commute, I guess. I just want to make things happen, and I hate asking people for favors, but most of the time you don’t get if you don’t ask. I hope we talk today.
Speaking of asking, I need to get a move on with some of these things I’ve started. I had a conversation with a headhunter yesterday and now need to do some follow-up with them. I also need to finalize some things with Arthur (Non-profit guy). And I’m finding more and more jobs are starting to be posted with my name written allllll over them.
With that, I bid you a fantastic day with lots of sweet, sweet LOVE.
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