PIC OF THE DAY!
Loooonnnggg hallway.
TODAY…
1. Thankful that my first day at the studio turned out brilliantly!
2. Thankful for Arthur and his words of wisdom
3. Thankful for all opportunities headed my way!
4. Excited about the possibilities with someone special…we’ll see.
5. Thankful for a full night’s sleep!
My first day with this studio project went very well. We had a meeting for a couple of hours to discuss our objectives, had some lunch together, he had some meetings while I did more research, and then we met again. We talked through a bunch of ideas, and had a bit of a breakthrough regarding some strategies we’re working on.
Bottom line, we’re going to meet again on Thursday and work on a few things and then continue working on my beautiful bag that we’d started three years ago! Yes, I’m finally going to have my gorgeous handcrafted bag that I’ve been drooling over for all these years! Plus, he wants me to work on additional designs!! How cool is that?
Can’t wait for tomorrow!!
So the HOT, HOT DATE??????
Well. I think we both played it up a twinge. I had a feeling there was going to be a bit of a let-down for both of us. And not that there was a huge let-down, it was just that the date wasn’t so HOT, HOT I think because we were both a little preoccupied with things. I’d just come off my first day at the studio and was excited about that, but a little tired, and he is concerned that his ex is messing around with his custody.
We went to the movies. I should have protested when he suggested It’s Complicated, but I was curious to see how he would react to the movie for a couple of reasons: (1) I was curious about how he feels about his ex-wife and thought that perhaps it might bring out some conversation afterward, and (2) I wanted to see if he is affectionate and hand-holdy at the movies.
I don’t think this is a hand-holdy kind of movie for people who are just dating to watch. Especially when you’re dating a guy who is divorced with three grown children and is having some complications with his ex.
Duh.
What was he thinking suggesting that movie? I’m not quite sure. It did spur conversation, but perhaps too much conversation. We should be getting to know each other, not rehashing the mistakes we’ve made with our exes.
Perhaps he’s still in love with his ex? I wish I’d asked the question. I suppose there’s always next time?
Then we went back to his place and smooched a tiny bit, and he broached the subject of sex and I guess was trying to get a read or an indication of how long he’s going to be waiting to get some action out of me.
In his defense, I’m extremely, almost overly, cautious. I’m not really giving him anything to go by–in fact, I give him a hard time about not showing enough signs of his attraction to me, when I should be taking a good hard look at myself. I don’t make it easy for him.
I realize I did that with K. as well.
What I would ultimately like: a delicious, hot, steamy affair that blossoms into a beautiful, easy, very comfortable long-term relationship.
What I’m giving right now: nothing. No real signs. In fact, I get nervous when he kisses me (even though I tend to loosen up after a while). I can feel the tingles. Oh YES, I can. But I do not let myself act on them. Why?
Let’s chew on that for a while, shall we?
I need to get on with the day. Today is my day to continue with the job search, follow up on loose ends and generally make things happen. I have a LOT going on the rest of this week. Must get going.
LOVE YOU…even if I don’t show it enough…I DO LOVE YOU!!!
* Edited for questions/clarification: CC’s kids are 18, 15, and 13 respectively. I guess to me that seems more like “grown” children considering the guys I’ve dated recently have kids between like 3-10.
He has been divorced 14 months (separated for over a year before that). I actually had to ask him that again last night because I’d forgotten.
The complications he’s been having leave me very confused. Perhaps you can make some sense of it: He spent a portion of the holidays at his ex-wife’s house cooking dinner for 20+ people (including his own mother, who was also invited to the family extravaganza). I let all of this information slide right on by considering I understand (kinda) after all the drama I had with EXMS over doing certain things with the ex and her family.
BUT NOW, CC’s ex is pissed off about something (I don’t know what) and he’s not allowed inside her house any more and she is threatening, well, I don’t know that either but it has to do with custody. Ugh.
I can tell he’s bummed and he’s trying to share things with me, but it’s kind of overwhelming considering he’s not even my boyfriend. I’m at a loss.
Do you think they might have pulled an “It’s Complicated” during the festivities? It did sound like an awful lot of togetherness. Hmmmm..
Loading comments...