PIC OF THE DAY!
Mom and Dad took me to lunch the other day in this super cute little are of town. There’s the most darling chocolate place there, so they bought me this INSANE box of chocolates…all dark chocolate, filled with things like lavender, hemp seed, ginger, paprika, Jack Daniels, etc. Damn!
TODAY…
1. Thankful it’s Friday and I still have one full week of VACAY before the work begins!
2. Thankful for chocolate. And coffee.
3. Thankful for my sweet, darling parents.
4. Thankful for more understanding.
5. Thankful for this calm before the storm.
Happy Friday! I’m getting the loft organized today because I’m having CC over. Now before you get all judge-y on me, hear me out. I’m still seeing him because I totally enjoy his company. No, we don’t have anything established yet, and I’m okay with that because I’m seeing others in the meantime as well. I mean, look. Just the other night I was making out with as many boys as would let me. I’m still kind of all over the place. I’m having fun. And I really like hanging out with CC. I hold no illusions. Fantasies, maybe. Illusions? Not anymore.
And with regards to the idea that we’re not in love with each other yet…well, I don’t know. I don’t think that it’s a matter of it’s never gonna happen. I just think it’s a matter of us both being overly cautious and nervous considering our pasts. I can tell you this: I do get butterflies when we’re together. And I know he’s totally into me. Yes, it’s very complicated. But I don’t think I could find anyone who is un-complicated at this point in time. Even the pilot. He’s got ‘shoos, too.
And here’s another thing: CC is going to be gone (as in, out of town) for pretty much all of March. He’s going on a wine tour of France and taking his daughters to Hawaii. That will leave me time to do mah thing, if you will. I’d actually prefer not being tangled in some kind of relationship-y thing while he’s gone. After all…a whole month? I’m going to need that time to figure out my new JOB. And have some more kiss-fests.
If all this sounds like I’m rationalizing, I am. But I’m just being realistic. We like each other, but the timing is off. Doesn’t mean we have to kick each other to the curb, does it? Just because he didn’t get me a Valentine’s card doesn’t mean he doesn’t write me poetry (forgot to tell you that he’s totally done that…the queen of convenient omission, am I).
Bottom line, I’m still interested. I still want to know more.
So CC is going to come over to my place for the very first time. Can you believe it? We’ve been dating for over three months, and he’s never been all up in my space! I love it! When we first met, he said something like, “I’ll come over for a drink before we go to dinner.” And I was all, OH NO YOU WON’T!
Yeah, I’m weird about my space. Remember when K. came over and he wouldn’t leave? Remember when guys would find out where I live and then ring my bell for hours on end in the middle of the night? Remember when everyone I ever dated has ended up MOVING IN on me when I wasn’t looking? I’ve just had so many weird experiences when I let guys in. My space is probably much more symbolic to me than it should be, but that’s just the way it is right now. So tonight will be very, very interesting.
There’s an event going on at 7pm. My friend’s husband is hosting it here in the building, but I’m not sure what it is! She sent me a link via facebook that didn’t come through, and she keeps telling me to click on the link, but there’s so friggin’ link to click. I’ve already invited CC to this “event”, but I don’t even know what it is. It could be some Amway convention for all I know. I hope she sends it, STAT. I guess it doesn’t really matter…
Did anyone else catch Olympic ice skating last night? So stunning. I can see why Kim Yu-na is a superstar in South Korea. Now she’s a worldwide superstar! I really haven’t gotten much into the Olympics this time around, but watching that last night was completely inspiring. Makes me want to start practicing and learning something really well. Yoga, maybe? I’m really enjoying it.
Okay. Need to go start my day. Love to my loves! Especially YOU!
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