Hello.
Spending much too much time on other sites (namely FB) and not enough time writing down my inner feelings. And stuff.
So yeah, Mikey dumped me. It’s all good, I guess. We had some really great talks about the whole ordeal. I guess. Bottom line, he thinks we want two different things (he wants marriage with no more kids/I want the works–marriage, kids, travel, fun, adventure). I personally think we’re closer goal-wise than he’s willing to admit. I don’t know. Perhaps it’s an excuse?
Regardless, we had a really good heartfelt talk earlier this week, ending with me going back to his place and having sex with him. Bad sex, even. GAH! I think he overthinks things–worse than I do!
But he also still keeps me at arms length. For example, he still sends me flirtatious texts. I reply in kind. I’m still very, very attracted to him.
Need to break out.
Something interesting happened last night. I met Maria and another girl for happy hour at this bar that’s pretty well known as a pick-up joint for younger guys looking for cougar action (or whatever the term is nowadays).
Maria saw this very handsome guy standing by himself looking all…handsome, so she told me that she was going to buy him a drink (a move that is very forward coming from Maria). After THAT, she told me that she was going to go TALK to him (even MORE bold!). She did and he came over to talk to us. Though he was pretty fantastically gorgeous and had a great personality, I basically rolled my eyes at him and decided that he was simply a playa–especially after he expressed an interest in taking us both out on a date! Oy. *HUGE EYE ROLL*
We talked for a while longer, and while I was still very curious about the guy I just felt so annoyed (perhaps jaded?) about the fact that he was hanging out at this bar by himself looking for prey.
He ended up leaving because he had a birthday party to attend at another venue. After he left, I shook my head at Marie and asked her what had gotten into her!!
She smiled and laughed and then said, “We actually know each other and are very good friends!”
I was PUNK’D!!
She then told me about how they’d set it up so that he and I could meet.
Later last night he sent me a text: “So does a guy ever get a second chance to make a first impression?”
Um, in this case, yes.
I’m looking forward to finding out what he’s really all about, because damn, this guy seems pretty fantastic. We’ll see. Meanwhile, I’m not holding my breath.
So…what’s new?
Work is in-freakin-sane! Did I tell you I’m getting a new position? I’m transitioning into a position that many of you might find insanely ironic. So, it’s quite fitting, no?
Remember when I planned a wedding and it didn’t work out? Well guess what? I’m going to be in over my head and living and breathing in the WEDDING INDUSTRY!! Hey, the way I look at it, if I can’t be a bride, then why don’t I MAKE STUFF for brides?
I’m really excited about it. And I think a lot of people at work are jealous that I’m going into one of the top product development positions in the company. It’s basically a promotion without the promotion. But the status is there. And I couldn’t be happier.
I just need to get up to speed.
In fact, I’m leaving to go into the office for a while. Need to get going….
I’ll try to be back to write more later (but you know what happens when I say that, right?).
See you soon.
I love you.
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