SexyPants Returns! in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

SexyPants returns!  My baby’s back in town.  And oh what a sweet, sweet reunion!
 
Seriously, I have to say your notes and others’ entries have helped me so much with putting things into prospective (edit: huh?).  I know it’s ridiculous to even have to say this, but it helps to reinforce:  SexyPants is my boyfriend and we have a commitment to be faithful to each other, but he is his own person.  He’s not mine to have to watch and make sure he’s playing by some set of rules.  It’s not my responsibility (or my right) to control his actions or make sure that he behaves.
 
And you know what? That takes a whole lot of pressure off of both of us.
 
Because I will tell you when he’s with me, he’s allllll mine.  I get his undivided attention (unless there’s a kid issue or when we’re with others, and even then he is very much all about making sure I’m included).
 
And when he’s with others at work or at play, they get the same respect. 
 
I think [AM] said it best in a note:  “My guess is he likes to keep those areas separate so he can focus on whichever is at hand.  I think that’s a really attractive quality, one that I want to strive for!”
 
Me too!  I mean, I think about allllll those times when I was traveling and out having a great time or an important conversation with a vendor or my boss or colleagues and I had to interrupt everything at a certain time to make a phone call.  A phone call, in fact, that usually ended up in a fight because maybe I was tipsy or thinking about other things or something.  And it was always very hard to get back to the matter at hand after those types of check-in phone calls.
 
Those days are over, my friends.  At least the way that we’ve seemed to work it out.  And he is so appreciative that he doesn’t feel the pressure to have to check in with me at a certain time.  He knows that I know that he’ll contact me when he’s free.  And we both know that there will be times when I’m off on a business trip (coming up soon!) and will need to have the same type of freedom.
 
Finally!!  A normal, functional relationship!!
 
We are coming up on the 6-month marker, and it seems like every day we are both more and more excited about the fact that we met each other and fell in love!  I am in awe of these feelings, and SexyPants makes sure to let me know that he is too.
 
You know what he told me the other day?  He said that when we were at the Mardi Gras Ball and I was off talking with someone else, his mother asked, “Where was [Ginger] twenty years ago?”
 
And his answer was great because I feel the same way.  He said that it doesn’t matter where I was then.  It’s not that we should have met and been together back then…it’s that we have met each other NOW and how sweet it is. 
 
I imagine that 20 years ago, neither of us would have appreciated these feelings—or even would be feeling these feelings.  I just think that we are both so deliriously thrilled that we are having such a great time together right now and that we’re in love and that we are CRAZY about each other, knowing that we’ve both been through some rocky, rocky shit.
 
I think it’s a matter of, OH—what a difference this is!  What a delicious, pleasant surprise!!
 
I know.  I gush.  I can’t help it!  Just bear with me while I still have this fresh, magical newness.  I know it can’t always be this way (and oooohhh yeah, the all-nighters continue), so I will revel and wallow in it for as long as I can.  And then, I imagine us transitioning into a wonderful, comfortable, happy and sane place. 
 
Whatever transpired in the universe to make this happen?  I have no idea.  But it couldn’t have played out better. 
 
Now off to get more work on this presentation done.  Time to focus!
 
I love YOU more than hot, HOT salsa!!